We're All Just The Same (Matty Healy)

Homemade Addict

Sitting in my corner I watch all the guests start to arrive or shall I say residents at this point all of these people walking through the door are people I see every single time Ryan has a party I scowl at the girls who walk in stumbling and already trying to flirt with Matty and the band while they try to soundcheck, I laugh as Matty completely ignores them and yells into the mic to shut them up.

I'm halfway through my joint and still analyzing the crowds coming in when I notice a group of three guys that I'd never seen before which was a rare occasion because there were never any new people rocking up to this shindig or to this town. I sat up straighter and watched them awkwardly stand together and looking around in search of someone. 

One of the guys only looked around 19 or younger he was cute but he also looked super nervous he was looking around until he locked eyes with me I didn't look away I just took a drag of my joint and looked him up and down with a questioning look on my face. Our exchange was cut short by Ryan's loud voice, I watched as he approached the three guys and swung an arm around one of them and welcomed them.

I followed them with my eyes as they walked past into the kitchen, I then looked back over to the band to see Matty had stopped sound checking and was watching the exchange as well he saw me watching and gave me a quick smile before looking away. He almost looked worried I wonder who the fuck those guys were because I know for a fact that everyone Ryan knows is already at this party and those three aren't apart of that group.

I try not to worry as I take another long drag and continue to observe, I shouldn't really need to worry with Ryan because I know that he wouldn't do anything dumb he always talks about how he would never die because of drugs because they are something like his demons and he would never let his demons get the best of him. So I have to believe that those guys are just old friends like Matty and that Ryan can handle himself. 

I finish my joint and let out a huff as I can't quite feel any difference though considering I had a really good day today there wasn't so much darkness to clear up, I close my eyes and smile as I think about the day that was only good because of Matty. As I'm thinking I hear the band start to play Matty's voice taking over my ears I open my eyes and smile wider at the boys on there makeshift stage. 

I enjoy the music until my phone starts violently buzzing "shit" I say as I see Amy's caller ID I quickly stand and answer the phone knowing that she has probably arrived, "for fuck sakes how hard is it to answer your god damn phone" Amy quite literally yells into the phone "I know I'm sorry I got caught up" I apologise " well I'm here cmon"  I hang up the phone and go to step out the front door I can feel someone's eyes on me I turn for a second and catch Matty's eyes on me I smile and continue out the door.

I see Amy standing by a car trying not to look suspicious I approach her "you know you look dodgier standing way over here like this than if you actually came in" she looks up and scowls at me "fuck off as if I'd step one foot in that house, do you have the money?" I ignore her comment and hand her the cash she takes it and counts the notes, she pockets the money and slips me a small bag of pills. I nod at her "pleasure doing business with you" she walks away and flips me off.

I walked back to the house and head straight to the backyard finding a spot under the tree and look at the small pills in the bag I was a little nervous to try these because I had no clue what was in them and all I had really ever done was weed so when I asked Amy for something different she suggested these, they were cheap and she said they give a great high, I mean why not right. I decide to wait and see if I can get Ryan or someone to do one with me so I place them back into my pocket and watch the band play from out here.

"Dyl......Dylan?" I open my eyes to see Matty sitting in front of me "hi?" I look around confused "why the hell are you sleeping out here?" Matty said with a slight chuckle " I rub my eyes looking back to him " I have no idea, I was just listening to you guys play and I guess I drifted off" I give out a laugh as Matty moves to sit beside me. 

"Matty?" I look over to him "yeah" I look back towards the house spotting the three mystery dudes from earlier "who are those guys" I feel Matty's mood shift and his body stiffens noticeably "No one really just a bunch of low lives looking to sell their homemade drugs." Matty watches the three as well. "I'm guessing it's cheap that's why Ryan's so happy they're here." I look to Matty and he nods still looking out to the house.

I decide to change the subject to some other homemade drugs as I pull the wee bag from my pocket I take two out and hold one out towards Matty, He looks down to my hand and then to me he picks it up and examines it, "where the hell did you get these from" he says with a chuckle amused by the little pill "don't worry about it and have one with me" I say as I bravely pop the pill in my mouth and swallow, Matty watches me before doing the same.

We spend the rest of the night riding out our highs, we laughed at every little thing we said and at everyone who was around us, I hung with Ryan in the kitchen and tried to distance him from the three dodgy guys, I also tried my best to ask him about them but as both of us were high and drunk it didn't go so well. Ryan eased my mind saying the guys were his friends and he wouldn't do anything stupid, for drunk and high Dylan that was enough to let him go but deep down I still worried as I eyed up the guys walking past and finding Matty again.

The party was dying out and people were passing out all over the place, I decide to call it a night as I stumbled over people with Matty dragging behind me we went to go upstairs to find a place to sleep, Matty started up the stairs but I had to stop a second, out of the corner of my eye I could see Ryan and two of the guys from earlier sitting on the couch and just before Matty pulled me upstairs I watched as one of the guys pull out a needle full of what I could only guess was their homemade drugs.

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