Comatose

Chapter 12: My Mind

                                                                    Hani's POV

 I feel as if I'm losing my mind, slowly my sanity is dying into what I can't explain. All these mysterious places that bring a question mark above my head, they all bring me to question what is reality and what is insanity. My reality is slipping away and is dragging me along with it. I don't want to be here any longer, I want to be back home with my friends and family, but I can't. I feel as if I'm in between life and death, but have no clue which side I'm closer to. Every second, I feel that I'm straying away from myself, straying away from the people that care about me most. I'm stuck in complete nothingness and can't seem to find the exit, which forces me to think that there is none. 

   At this point, I can't tell if this is supposed to be heaven or hell, because it feels like a cross between the two. One minute I'm in the most beautiful field of glowing flowers that illuminate the ground with breath-taking fluorescents, the next I'm penetrated by a needle of a horrific monster that paralyzes me with terror. I don't know what will come next and I don't know whether to be in joy or in fear. Every second seems to be a new adventure that compels my mind to erase the memories that I once cherished with my life. With every tick of a clock that I have never seen, another quarter of a face disintegrates from my entire being, taking a part of me with it. 

   The longer I stare into the reflection staring back at me with a battered face, the more I don't recognize her, the more that she seems to be just another face I've seen before, but never one I could match a name with. As I stare into her glassy, icy blue orbs, the more I feel my own eyes begin to flood with the salty substance that stings at my retinas. I want to reach out to her, hug her and tell her that everything is going to be okay, that she doesn't need to cry and that things will get better, but then I feel that I am only lying through the skin of my teeth. A part of me argues that she is me, but another says that she is nothing but someone of what I used to be. 

   My head is a war zone, and I don't seem to be winning, but then again...what if this is all in my head? I'm imprisoned in my own thoughts and I can't get out. I'm lost and have no sense of direction, there is no left or right because either way, I end up feeling farther than before. 

   "Hani..."  

     A breeze flows by me, whispering Hani in my ear, tickling at my ear like a gentle, white feather that lightly brushes against my ear, caressing it with comfort of my anxious mind. 

    Suddenly, a large, water-based, snake-like type creature springs from the pitch black floor beneath my feet, snaking around my neck, it constricts around my throat. Smashing my airway to a complete halt, suffocating me slowly. \

   My breaths try desperately to get through, but won't budge, my heart pounds in my ears like a speaker with a mic to a drum set, deafening me from everything except my pounding organ. 

    "Come on Heeyeon, I know you can do this, I know its hard to breathe, but just hang in there. Just a little longer, I promise..." The voice mumbles again, this time, I try my best to listen. Attempting to calm myself down. 

   I feel hands, laying themselves on various areas of my frame, my legs, my arms, my hands, my cheeks, everywhere. Their soft, warm, comforting hands bring me to bliss and a serene state of mind like even though I can't breathe, nothing can hurt me. 

   Finally, the grip listens and precious air fills my lungs once again. I guess it's true what they say...you never realize how much you love the taste of the air, till it's deprived of you. 

   Still, the salty sweat drips from my tear ducts as another though slams into me. 

   Who was that voice?

Hey guys, sorry if this chapter is shorter than you guys are used to, I'm trying to stretch the story a bit so then it isn't too short. I also apologize if this chapter kind of sucks. Lol. But thank you for reading anyways! Love you guys! Have a great day/night!