Magcon: I'll never leave you ♡ catt/marter

Chapter 8

Can we just talk about Jacobs song for a moment..

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So much drama on twitter oh mah goodness.

I'm sorry I didn't update when I said I would try to but wattpad is being a butt hole ugh.

IF YOU KNOW ANY GOOD SONGS PLEASE TELL ME ALL MY MUSIC IS PRETTY SHITTY.

Except for the ones that aren't shitty

Matts POV:

I woke up to a sleeping carter in my arms. Ugh I don't know what's up with me lately. I like cuddling with my best friend is that so wrong?

I looked down at his face and just stared at his beauty. His arms were wrapped around my torso and he basically clung onto me.

His eyes quickly shot open reveling his rich brown eyes.

"Matt what are you looking at?"

"Nothing just you. Wait is that creepy?" I asked moving my hand to my head rubbing my hair.

"Kind of yeah.." He replied looking down at his hands.

"Well you wanna get up?"

"Nah let's stay in bed forever and cuddle forever! Of corse matt I wanna get up." He chuckled. I quickly unwrapped my arms from around his body.

He sad up and stretched his arms in the air and yawned. I stayed laying down watching him as he made his way to the bathroom.

Carter walks funny when he wakes up. And his hair was perfectly messy. If only I possessed his beauty. But no I'm an ugly dumb fuck.

"Matt?" Carter said taking me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah?" I sat up to look at him better.

"Why is there a razor with dry blood in your bathroom?" He stood there with the razor in his hand with a broken look on his face.

Shit.

"Where did you find that?" I asked quickly getting up to walk towards him.

I tried taking the razor out of his hand but he moved his hand.

"Don't. Now tell me why you have this." He said with the most serious face I've ever seen on carter.

"I use it to clean the dry toothpaste off my sink and one day I Accidentally cut myself pressing to hard." I quickly said trying to sound as convincing as possible.

He didn't look convinced. Not al all.

"Let me see your arms." He said firmly putting his hand out.

I gave him my arm and he looked it up and down not seeing any cuts.

"You aren't lying to me about this are you?" He said releasing my arm from his grip.

"I'm not." I can't stand lying to carter but in this case I have to. If he found out about my cuts he won't look at me the same way.

He won't want to be friends with me anymore because I'm not normal.

He gave me a concerned look before going back into the bathroom. I heard him dropping my razor in the trash can. I'll get it later. I'll need it again.

"Matt where's your toothpaste?"

"In the 2nd drawer down." I got the remote from my bedside table and went back down on my bed. I turned on teen nick to watch drake and josh.

"Matt come here now!" I heard carter semi-scream at me from the bathroom.

I quickly got up clearly hearing he was mad at me. Maybe he found my box.

I opened the door only to see that carter had found my box.

"What the fuck is this?!" He asked shoving the box at me.

"Nothing why?"

"What the fuck do you mean nothing?!? ITS A BOX OF OTHER FUCKING BLOODY RAZORS!"

"So?" I asked putting the box down and walking towards my bed.

"So? So?? You must be fucking joking. Matt show me them now!"

I shook my head quickly and sat down at my bed again.

"Show me them. NOW!" He said putting emphasis on now.

"I don't cut!"

"If you don't show me then I'm leaving and never talking to you" he sounded pretty serious. But I can't lose carter. He's my only friend here.

"Then go." Why did I say that?!?

"Matt you know damn well I will leave you and I know damn well you don't want me to go. Now show me."

I slowly stood up and lifted my shirt. I could see the hurt in his eyes. He huffed and started tearing up.

"Carter don't cry." I went to give him a hug and try to calm him.

"I didn't know this about you Matt how do you expect me not to c-cry?" His voice broke as he said that.

"Look I didn't mean for you to find out this way okay? I was gonna tell you when I was ready."

"WHEN WAS THAT GONNA BE? A YEAR?" He yelled as he pushed me out of the hug.

"Carter calm down."

"HOW CAN I BE CALM WHEN YOU'RE CUTTING YOURSELF? HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN GOING ON?" He said in a slightly louder voice.

"Don't worry carter! I've been clean for a year now. And I don't plan on doing that again. Those blades were my past okay?" I walked to him pulling him into another hug.

"Promise me you won't." He whispered into my ear sending shivers down my back.

"Promise."

He let go of me and sat down at the bed. He patted the space next to him signaling me to lay down with him.

I'm glad we can get past this. I really don't plan on going back to that. That was a mistake and it was my past.

I'm hoping carter can be my future.

Wait

What?

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New title because old one was ugly.

New cover because the old one was ugly ugh.

My friend made the design for me from pic collage her user is:

Shealynr if you wanna follow her on that.

See ya in 5 days. Maybe. probably not because I tend to write at like 3 am every day.

That's my writing time.

Don't judge me

Byyeeee