27th of March
Time flies, y'know?... Sometimes I wonder whether it's good or bad... For us. You're a puzzle, always confusing me. I wish that I wasn't in a big mess, but now I realize that I was in a big mess... Can't do anything about it. Now, here we are... Living it.
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Everytime I got home, I stare at the note. Every night before sleeping, I stare at the note. Everytime I wake up, I stare at the note. When I'm not busy, I stare at the note. Such an idiot, right? I knew nothing's gonna happen if I had continue this sh*t. Since I'm a girl with strong guts, I have to know what is this... What is going on!? I am inlove with a guy who's proven his love to me and then ignores me like I'm a ghost?!
I don't know what I was feeling. My anger and sadness mixed up. I will approach Kei, but how? In what way? Angry? Sad? Or just talk to him straight?
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The next day, I approached him at dismissal time.
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"...Kei..."
"...Uhh...Hi Marzia, What's up?" Kei said.
"What's up?! You've always been out of my sight for days. You ignore me. You said that you were busy with stuff, but that such long time? Is there something I don't know? What's going on? You're confusing me."
"...I...I'm sorry. I'm sorry for ignoring you and confusing you. I'm...just...tired." Kei said with a low tone.
"...Tired?... Then what's this?" I showed him the scrap of paper I found on his desk.
"...W...What? H-How did this?..."
"What is this?!... So... You're tired...of...hurting me? But... You didn't." I said with teary eyes.
"I...I... Just don't want to hurt you." Kei said.
"But you're doing it right know! You're hurting me right now!...You didn't hurt me before, you made me feel loved and safe... W-Why?..."
"You don't understand... That's... Not what... I meant..." Kei said.
"Then tell it to me. Tell me what you mean... I will understand you in any way... I love you, Kei... You were the guy who loved and understood me." I said sobbing.
"It's... I-I can't put the words... But I know you'll understand someday..." Kei hugged me and said " I'm... sorry. I love you." And he left.
...W-Why... You love me... You said you're sorry... But why... Is my heart aching?
I got home then I went to my room. I shut the door closed. I cried and was on my knees. I kept saying "Why" and cried and cried. I was sitting on the floor and I went nuts. "Why?!"
After what happened... Everything was back to square one... Except it got worse. I couldn't eat, sleep or even talk.
And all I could say to myself... Is why?
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