1st of March
Always. Endlessly. Permanently. Infinity. Eternally. Forever. I could go on and on and on but they are no use to me now. These words are now boring... And only someone special can put the fun and happiness in it. So I guess it is true that... There's no such thing as these words like FOREVER? Now that we're over... Is it really over... Or just a new beginning? I don't really care about it as long as it doesn't hurt me. Sometimes I ask myself if you were really there for me or you really are there but did nothing...
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I starved because I couldn't eat, I was tired because I couldn't sleep, I was just in my room thinking that I would commit suicide... And I thought that I would do that all summer... Because of Kei, the guy I loved with all my heart... But now... Everything is a big blur.
They say that don't let one person affect your life and take you down... But its not that easy... Especially if that person means everything to you.
While I'm in my room,I got all crazy and was talking to nobody... Thinking that I'm talking to Kei
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"Y-You said th-that... You were a lost shooting star with nowhere to go... You found my heart and f-felt like home... B-But w-why did you... L-Leave? Why would you leave when you're happy and loved? WHY?! IS THERE SOMETHING ELSE MISSING IN MY LOVE FOR YOU?! TELL ME!"
I kept crying and crying...
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That situation was damn annoying and frustrating... Even by just thinking about it... ANNOYING AS FLAPPY BIRD.
Eventually, I got tired and fell asleep. A few hours later, I noticed Kei sent me a text message...
"Marzia, you were the most beautiful girl I've met... I fell inlove at first sight, even though I didn't believe in it. At first, I was nervous and scared because I thought you didn't feel the same. But time flies and we confessed our love for each other... I was the most happiest guy in the whole world and I wished that you felt the same. I wish that my love for you made you feel like you were my princess. I swore to myself that I am your knight in shining armor to make you feel safe. We had dates but it doesn't matter if its a date or not, as long as you're with me... But... I realized something... I knew I was gonna end up hurting you... I know you were hurt when you got jealous but its not what I meant. Our relationship lasted for almost a year now, and I know we can make it last... But I know eventually that you'll be hurt because of me. The reason I'm breaking up with you is because... I love you. I don't want you to get hurt. I know you're feeling pain right now, but if the pain was in the future, its more painful. I'm sorry... Just remember that I'm doing this because I love you... And I'm sorry if I were a pain in your life... I love you, Marzia. I always will. I swear that I'll never meet a girl like you again..."
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Tears began to run down on my cheek... Each tear means That I love him, and I cried for hours...
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To be honest... I don't know if how many chapters I'll make but I'm pretty sure that I'm sad to say this is almost over. Those who read this story, Thanks. And please Vote.
My upcoming book after this book is done is To The Moon. Follow me on Twitter @imJohnPatwick and I'll tweet you the plot of it.
