3rd of May
There's only one thing that decribes what I hate about goodbyes... It's knowing that you will never say hello to that person again...
-A...
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After many years had passed... A man tells a story... To some teenagers...
-Kei's POV-
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I said to myself...
Argh!... Why, Kei!? Why did you lose the only girl you loved?...
Why did I even did that?!
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Because I love Marzia... I love her... I don't want to hurt her...
But... I just did, right?
No. It's because I don't want to hurt her even more...
And that's the thing I hate about love... You'll always get hurt... In every good times of
love, there's a searing pain behind it... We get hurt because of love but we still seek for it... I... I love her... I know there's someone better for me... But...
I don't want someone better or even better than perfect...
I want someone who fits for me just right...
I know that person will come, but I promise... That I'll never meet a girl like Marzia, ever...
Well, maybe I'll meet someone who's almost just like her... But there's only one girl named Marzia who I loved the most and loved me back who will always... Eternally... Infinitely... Forever, stay in my heart.
I still remembered the day when I first saw her... I saw an angel... An angel with hair of
a medium length and wide expressive eyes...
I just stood there in awe... I was strucked by love at first sight...
I really wanted to talk to her... But... I was nervous... I really wanted to know her name...
We started getting to know each other.
I talked to her and we both introduced ourselves. Her name is Marzia. The name itself is heavenly. We chat and chat and chat that day and I was so happy when I got home... I talked to the girl I like which I barely know and only knew her name for like just several hours ago...
Then I confessed my feelings for her as days passed... I was surprised that she also confessed that she has feelings for me too. Our confessions just made my day. That was the happiest day of my life. Then our mutual understanding got stronger... And stronger... Until our romantic interest turned out to be us dating.
We had a bit of pain because of the sweet jelly of jealousy... I didn't realized that she got jealous when I'm with another girl in my class... We ended it with a sincere apology and a hug...
Then as our relationship continued, I ask myself what is love? But words cannot express and define what love is... Only the heart can...
Our relationship was going great and in a right flow... I didn't expect that all of that will be gone in a blink of an eye... Because of me...
The start of the scar began when I realized that... Someday, I'm gonna end up hurting her... And I don't want for her to feel the worst pain that could be... So I didn't actually talked to her for a few days... Because I wasn't ready...
My snobbish treatment to her... Was kinda hard for me... And I already knew that she knows that something... Is not right. So she went to me because she couldn't take it. She was so sad and cried and I said that I just didn't want to hurt her... But I was doing it, right? I'm such an idiot.
I guessed that everything is a blur for her that time...
Everything turned upside down... It became a turning point.
But the only reason I did that is because I love her. You'll know you love someone when you let him or her go, otherwise you don't love that person if you won't.
I told her why I did that and she said she understood everything now from that time... But we're both still in pain and having a hard time to move on... She said she will always love me... And so did I...
And we ended it in a Forgive And Forget...
But if I'm talking to Marzia right now, I'll say...
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Wherever you are... I wish you knew.... I just want you to know... I love you...
I still love you...
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...Marzia.
To: @mitchibarra1922
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