3rd of March
They say pain is temporary, but maybe it's true. When a knife is wielded and stabbed at the heart... The blood continues to flow until it stops flowing because it drained. It leaves us confused and hurt, and you could do nothing because there's nothing medical surgery can do with a broken heart. But we find a way...
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I know that everything happens good or bad, but the thing is that we don't have a clue when or what bad will happen. We try to avoid it, yet we fail. But the true failure is that we stop trying. Relationships is one part of our life where we take risks but when others take the risk and fail, they stop trying and feel like its the end. Such sh*t right?
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Kei never failed to distract me. Never. I mean it. I never got bored of talking to him even if we did that a thousand times. I never got bored of looking at him. There's...something, that only my mind can understand. When you loved someone for so long, sometimes your mind says that he or she is the one you are missing to complete you. When we think about that, the greatest fear is losing that person. Even if that person already made you feel pain.
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Okay, so its nearly the end of the school year that time. It kinda sucks for me because summer is coming and I can't stand it just in my house for months. I know summe is awesome because of going to beaches, enjoying the sunlight and I get to sleep and wake up late. But of course, you know my reason why it sucks...
I kinda noticed that mostly he was busy with things and I understand that. But the thing is that we haven't spent more time unlike before. I was busy too, but I can consider our time together and I can manage. I admit, that whenever he's busy doing something important with ANOTHER girl, the sweet jelly of jealousy tempts me. I don't know if he knows how I feel about that, but I hope so. I'm putting some effort not to get too close to guys when Kei sees me with one. What can I say? My heart is taken.
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...So, yeah. Nothing's really going on. I wish there was...
I just kept watching him those days. Eventually, I had enough of it so I went to him and asked..
"Hey, you busy?"
"Uhhh-, yeah. So much work to do." Kei said while doing something and writing.
"Oh, uhhh- okay. I was just wondering that uhhh- Uhm...maybe later."
"Okay." He said.
That feeling when someone just talked to you with no feelings at all, not sad, happy or angry... Just nothing, blank. I thought he was just tired with things. The worst part is that he didn't even look at me, while I tried my best to look him in the eye. I was like "What just happened?".
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I know for myself that its not just the things he's busy with things and crap why Kei was like that. But why...
This is already a big deal to me.
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Is this a sign of an end of something or the beginning of something?
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...Until now, I still can't answer that...
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Sorry for the very long delay... Been busy with sh*t. Also sorry if this came out really short. This won't happen again, I already have drafts stored for the next ones, just fixing some details. I'm back on track. Also read my other book The Crooked Man.
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