Homework Club

MY unrealistic teenage drama

I want to die. I really fucking do.

It was only when Icyhot tapped me on the shoulder at lunch when I remembered this morning. FUUUUUUUCK. One period with the Deku and I forget everything in the history of the world. I'm pretty sure I forgot my name, to be honest. Now Icyhot was standing in front of me with an a̶t̶t̶r̶a̶c̶t̶i̶v̶e dark blush on his face, looking anxiously at the floor. "C-can we talk?"

"Uhhh... Sure?" WHY DID I ACCEPT?! WHAT THE FUCK?! WHY AM I LETTING HIM ASK ME?! WHY AM I ACTUALLY CONSIDERING?! WHY IS MY ATTRACTION TO THIS BASTARD SUDDENLY SKYROCKETING?!

Anxiety. Fear. Frustration. Confusion. Exhilaration. Anticipation. Excitement.

That is the exact order of how my emotions changed on the way to the homework room. All of a sudden, I wanted nothing more than to hear him ask me out.

Why? Why am I anticipating this? This is so out of character for me. I've had these walls up for years. Now suddenly all it takes is an overheard conversation to break them down? Since when did I get so... Weak. Vulnerable. Pathetic.

Before I knew it, Icyhot was opening the door to the Homework room. A sudden surge of panic and excitement coursed through my body.

"Katsuki, I have to tell you something... Please hear me out and don't be mad." I'm not ready for this. "From when I met you, you were always there for me when I needed it most. You gave me the support that I didn't recieve from my own family, and you will never know how much that means to me. You gave me help and a place to sleep during one of the darkest times of my life and I will always remember and respect you for that. So, what I'm trying to say is... is," Say it. Just say it. "I love you, Bakugou Katsuki."

"Shoto? Kacchan? What's going on here?" Midoriya stood in the doorway, a look of horror on his face. "Did you just... confess to Kacchan?" He suddenly got a look of defiance and walked over to the middle of the room, where we were standing.

What the fuck is going on here? Why is Midoriya so angry all of a sudden? I've never seen him this fired up.

"I won't let you have him that easy." He said, his green eyes flaring. "Why don't you go watch Glee, Midoriya. It's the only thing you do anyway." The room felt cooler just from that comment.

Midoriya laughed. "That's rich. At least we had a bonding moment." Now it was Icyhot's turn to laugh. "You have absolutely no idea, do you?"

What the fuck is this?!

"BOTH OF YOU CHILL THE FUCK OUT!" I yelled. They looked at me. "What the fuck is going on?" I asked, looking between them.

"Kacchan, I don't know why or when I started feeling like this but I know that I love you. Please consider!" Midoriya spoke quickly and bowed at the end of the sentence.

Wait, but... I can't... What?

My head began to spin from the pressure of just having two attractive boys confess to me.

On one hand, I have a hot artist who seems to attract both girls and boys alike left, right and center. He's definitely got undeniable talent and is destined for great things. I want to find out whats under that fucking wall of ice he's put up, and I'm willing to let him break down mine. I want to help fix him.

On the other, I have an adorable boy with the voice, personality and looks of an angel. A competitive singer that has enough ambition and talent to go all the way. We share interests and hobbies and we're polar opposites. We would be the litteral definition of "opposites attract". I want to learn how he became so firm in what he believes and how he got so talented. I want to know more about his life and tell him about mine.

Why is this so fucking confusing? Why can't I choose a fucking guy? I feel like the damn Bachelor. Now they're both looking at me, looking ten thousand times more beautiful than before.

"Katsuki?"
"Kacchan?"
"I-I..."

I can't do this...

"I have to think..."

What the fuck have I gotten myself into?