Somebody else's shoes.

so many friends 6

I sat on my bed thinking about the fair, was that real? Did we mean to? What will we be like now?  I asked myself many questions because I was afraid. I felt unsure if I had feelings for Maddie or if he even had feelings towards me.

I suddenly got a ding on my phone and looked down to see a message from Xand. I totally forgot all about my new friend, I picked up my phone and opened it to see his profile picture.

Xand: Hey are you there I need help.

Akari~chan: yeah I am what do you need help with?

The bubbles for Xand trying to type came up and were there for about five minutes. I suddenly asked myself a question, what does Xand stand for?  Then Xand sent his answer.

Xand: See I like this girl and I don't know if she likes me back, She is so nice to me while I'm just a nerd who doesn't have or should have friends.

Akari~chan: Of course she likes you why wouldn't she your really nice from what I know so far.

Xand: *laughs* Thanks that was sweet of you.

Akari~chan: Hey quick question what does Xand stand for?

Xand stopped for a moment then his name changed to Xander. I was a little embarrassed that I didn't know that it was Xander. I brushed it aside.

Xander: Yeah I was too afraid that you were going to think I was crazy just because you got a cool name and I don't. I gtg talk to you later.

Then we both signed off. It was a good timing to since it was time for school and I wasn't even dressed for school. I opened up my nerd box and saw millions of sweaters look up at me begging for me to pick them. I noticed a Japanese sweater that said demon on it and knew it was the one. I looked around for bottoms and noticed a skirt that matched perfectly.

After I was done getting clothes on I walked to my brothers bathroom and fixed my hair. I did my makeup then looked deeply into my reflection. I walked out and got in my truck and drove to school only because Maddie and Kate were starting to ride together more. When I arrived I opened my locker and threw everything inside then slammed it shut. I turned around and looked up and noticed the guy from the fair was right in front of me.

"Hi Kittycat. How are you?" I didn't answer and tried to get away but got held up against the lockers. I looked up and I felt anxiety hit me as the poison green eyes looked at me not with anger but with curiosity.

"What?" I said quietly as he looked me up and down. I felt scared like if I said the wrong thing then I would be killed with out a trial. I felt like my heart stopped once when I saw his hand come up and brush my bangs aside. I started to calm down when I noticed the name Leo on his football jacket.

Leo looked down at his jacket then back at me but raised his eyebrow. I smiled awkwardly when I looked up at him but then saw a girl behind him.

"Casey? Is that you?!" A girl with rainbow hair and a few pride clothes pushed Leo out of the way and hugged me. I smelt the smell of mint and felt as the past hit me in the face.

"Alia?! I thought you moved in third grade?!" I said surprised. Alia smiled and to be honest doesn't look like her younger self. Alia is that type of girl you would look at and think she is nice which she is. She was the normal hufflepuff person and she always made people laugh but never forces you to say anything when you don't want to. I wanted to cry as I looked at her since school was hell after she moved.

"I moved here and when I saw you I thought someone got me high on accident." We talked for what felt like forever and I felt happy. Alia took my hand and ran out of the school, I thought maybe we were skipping school but I didn't care her and me haven't had this time together. We walked until we reached train tracks and walked on one side holding hands. I looked at a stream below us and saw as two ducks were swimming.

"You still are stubborn right?" Alia asked. I turned to her and saw her smile, I chuckled and looked at my feet.

"Yeah but what's new?" Alia laughed and then we stopped and laid down on the tracks and looked at the sky. I felt like we were Max and Chloe breaking rules and discovering new things as I watched clouds pass. Alia and me sat in silence as we looked at the clouds.

As we laid on the tracks I heard a noise and sat up and looked fearing that it was a train but it was just a person who sat near the stream. I couldn't make out their face but the figure looked also the same from behind. Alia got up and sighed loudly.

"Took ya long enough!" Alia yelled. the figured turned around and I knew it was the girl at the fair. She smiled and came over I felt as tears came down my cheeks.

"Hey Casey." Vahl smiled and complained with Alia about not taking too long. As normal Alia did her normal firm tone and then the face where she rolled her eyes and opened them wide when she looked at me. Vahl tickled Alia who was still a little shorter than Vahl. I smiled and sat down.

The two followed and sat down and next we talked about the past. The two said how they missed my short brown hair. I laughed at what they said and felt like it was a dream. I suddenly felt a buzz from my phone. I pulled it out and saw a text from Maddie and a missed call.

'Where are you?' Maddie said I felt bad thinking maybe he believed we were dating after the kiss.

'Casey I'm serious answer me!' I felt anxiety take me over and listened to the message.

"Casey please call me if your okay!" I felt scared when I heard Maddie crying in the back. I got a flash back of being in my car after the fair. Maddie was reading my journal that kept my suicidal thoughts.  I remember trying to talk but Maddie told me to go back to sleep. I got up and walked away and called Maddie praying he was gonna pick up.

"Casey! Where the hell are you?! I was worried!" I felt my heart burst and started to cry loud enough for Maddie to hear but not for my friends to hear.

"I'm sorry I skipped school with my childhood friends." I heard as Maddie muttered my name and took a deep breath then let it out.

"I'm sorry it's just I'm afraid that your going to take suicide." We talked for a while until I stopped crying and once when Maddie was done lecturing me.

After I got home from hanging out with friends mom didn't know I was out so she let me go to my room. I felt a hole in my chest as I looked at the ceiling. I took off my skirt and threw on pajama shorts.

Xander: Have you ever been in love?

I looked at the message and thought what he meant by that.

Akari~chan: Sure I guess. I am afraid of it though.

Xander: I like this girl and I don't know how to tell her and I'm scared that she will hate me.

Akari~chan: who would say no to you. Dude your awesome!

Silence then came. I thought maybe it was something I said but then I thought it was most likely that he went to eat. Maddie suddenly flooded my brain, do I like him? I was unsure and felt that feeling in your stomach when your unsure and a little sad. I turned on my music and closed my eyes brushing off what I was thinking.

Sorry that this was short I am getting writers block and it sucks. hope you guys like it. =3= AmiytG!