The shell of Who I was//Why Don't We

Chapter 13

Song of the chapter- The middle by Jimmy Eat the World

Cobie's Point of View

*Two months later*

It was finally February. In the two months prior I had begun going to therapy. Mom and I were also working on getting me enrolled in online college. Corbyn and the boys would be back in the states in a few hours, but my twin wouldn't be home until Friday and that was still three days away. I hadn't really made a lot of friends here after the reporters finally started clearing out things had finally begun setting in and being nice. Today we were going to pick up my MacBook for school and to sign me up for classes. I have an interview today, working for the local elementary school, as a paraeducator helping special needs kids for their second semester. My life was finally routine. I was loving it!
Jack hadn't messaged me back since that day, which I am kinda glad about. Corbyn had told me Jack had a crush on me. After everything with Elien I just wasn't ready. She and I ended on good terms but the stress killed our relationship within the matter of a week. I wasn't looking for a relationship anytime soon, especially not with my brother's bandmate. I was still learning how to be Cobie. I missed being Brenn sometimes, more so because it was familiar. Deep down I knew I was still the same person, but the insignia that comes with the name. I missed that.
"Cobie, ready to go?" My mom asked. I hurried down from my room, which we had fixed up finally!
*This room style but the second picture is the bed*

We made our way through town and got everything we needed. I was all signed up for my classes and really feeling good. I was now just getting ready at home for my interview.
*Wearing this*

My mom had helped me with putting my hair into a sock bun too. We were now just killing time before we had to leave. Before Corbyn and all of this I had never had a huge following and now I had to watch everything I do to make sure I didn't fuck up in front of reporters. My life was ricocheting once again. I was happy for the rebound but depressed over the pain. I had been having to deal with all of the backlashes from the social media as well as the new found fame. At times I wished Corbyn wasn't famous. Even though I didn't know him that well I knew this was his dream. Christina tried to help but we were only internet friends at the moment.
My therapy was successful though, I had begun to come to terms and forgiveness with everything. I feel like Jenna, Paislee, and I had all become closer with each other ever since I moved. My girls were forever and not replaceable. I couldn't wait until this summer when they came up, and in a few weeks I was going back to Indiana to get some of my stuff and my car, just as the weather permits.
*Time skip to after interview*
I was told that I had gotten the job shortly after it was over. It made me so happy to be doing what I love, and not having to try to lead up to Corbyn's spotlight. He was the nicest person she had ever met but he gave me big expectations to fill.

*Text Conversation With Corbyn*

Ope Brother from the same mother C.O.B.I.E M.E.R.C.E.D.E.S B.E.S.S.O.N

Gone, Girl Yes, Oh twin of mine?

Ope Brother from the same mother Don't tell anyone but I'm on a plane to Virginia right now.

Gone, Girl Uh, How the hell did you manage to get away 3 days early?

Ope Brother from the same mother I had this planned out all along, also Jack is spending the holiday with us

Gone, Girl He's sleeping in your room then not mine

Ope Brother from the same mother You're my baby sister of course he's not staying with you

Gone, Girl Cor-Bitch mom said I'm only 2-minutes younger.

Ope Brother from the same mother Flights leaving gtg, meet us at gate 234 take my car it's in the garage

Gone, Girl Yes I know I drove it yesterday

Ope Brother from the same mother Don't drive it without my permission you probably spilled lip shit in my seat like Christina and Ashley did.

Gone, Girl Did not okii bye

I went and got into Corbyn's care as soon as I got his message. After you know first cleaning my room. I may not want a relationship with Jack but I don't want him to think I'm an animal or for Corbyn thinking of me that way, because I had never lived or even stayed with him. I was under a lot of internal pressure for all fo this to go exceptionally well. I was always one to really leave on first impressions because I was so shy. Jenna was the confident one out of our friend group and Paislee was the cheerleader type. I was the duff. I accepted it with pride though. Between Delanie, Evan, and I- I was always the delinquent child.

In general, I had always had a lot to add up to, which is why it definitely scared me with my biological family.