The shell of Who I was//Why Don't We

Chapter 21

Chapter 21

Song- Beautiful People by Ed Sheeran + Khalid

Cobie

As I started to awaken, I felt strong arms around me. I couldn't remember how I got here. The last I remembered I was in my bathroom. The room was dimly lit with only my Christmas lights. I turned to see Jack lying next to me. "How did he get here" I thought to myself. Trying to piece together last night. I stood up trying to move as little as possible. Something in me just didn't want to wake up Jack. I walked into the bathroom, bits and pieces were coming back to me. I had tear stains on my face and my bathroom and room were trashed. I caused this destruction; only me.

Walking out of the bathroom, I saw a light in the living room. I'm not exactly sure what time it is. I peered down the hall, it was Corbyn and some girl. I'd only ever seen pictures of her. "Christina?" I thought. Maybe, I didn't even remember her being here. Did she see me acting crazy? God! I suck at first impressions. As made my way back to my room, I noticed Jack was still asleep. He looked so peaceful despite the chaos. In the mess I found my phone; It was 3am. I decided to just go back to bed. I don't know why but the fact that Jack was asleep in my bed didn't bother me in the slightest.

When I woke up once again, but Jack was no longer next to me. I was slightly disappointed not seeing him next to me. I might have a crush on him. There was no time to think about boys though, I had to get used to my new life and that was hard enough. I was finally in a good place for the most part, starting school and having a steady job. You're strong Cobie. I took a deep breath and began getting ready for the day, not looking forward to the confrontation that was bound to happen when I left my room.

I couldn't even remember what happened. I should be okay; I found my loving family that had been looking for me all these years. I should finally be happy, but I feel like something was missing. With this I started considering going on tour with Corbyn. I could always take a leave of absence and continue my school online. So many thoughts were racing through my head and the holiday wasn't even over.

Today was Easter Sunday, though I've never really celebrated it. I made my way into the living room and was met with surprised glances. "Hey Cobie, how are you feeling? My mom asked. I suppose I had to get used to calling her that. "I'm alright," I said trying to give her a sincere smile. She hugged me in return nearing crushing all my internal organs. "Mom, you are crushing her she's okay, trust me twin-intuition," Corbyn said. Saskia let me out of her grip, and we all sat on the couch.

"So how does all this Easter stuff work?" I asked cluelessly. Everyone looked at me with surprise, well everyone except Jack. He was the only person not in the living room. Corbyn took me into the kitchen and we helped Saskia, my mom... cook. Much to my surprise we'd be hosting a bunch of people tonight.

When the time finally came, and everyone was arriving. I was as ready as I could be. Ashley helped me pick out my outfit and Christina did my makeup. As the beauty guru she was I couldn't not accept when she offered. She was honestly very sweet, we talked about Corbyn and watched YouTube. I made my way down the stairs wearing a simple dress and was beyond excited. My first real Easter, though I was kind of disappointed when I didn't see Jack with all the people downstairs. I went down and joined my family, My mom was outside and that's where most of the guests were heading. Ashley, Christina, and I joined then. Little kids were running looking for Easter eggs and Corbyn was chasing then pretending to be a monster.

Jack came outside not long after I had. He mostly stayed with Corbyn running around playing with the kids. Dinner was amazing and I was so happy to meet even more members of this family. I was finally beginning to feel like I belonged. Nobody treated me different.

By the time the party was over, I felt extremely exhausted. I hugged my true mom and went up to my room. Not before saying goodnight to Christina, Jordan, and Ashley. Once I got to my room, I put on some baby blue joggers and a cut off white sweatshirt. I decided to go out onto my balcony and enjoy the spring weather, with my guitar. It had been a while since I picked it up. I played Hate U Love U by Olivia O'Brien. "What about all the time you'd pick me up and we'd just drive around. Until we found a place to stay and pass the day away. We'd do nothing but it was okay with me. You say it's not good to spend all my time thinkin' about you so late at night" I sang. I felt alright, and with that I just let the echo of the lyrics fill the night.