Evil love is love (savitar Barry x reader)

Training

Your POV
Hours later, and many bored moments for me, savitar came back. He grabbed me and flashed us to jitters.
"What are we doing here?" I said in a strained voice, this place seemed bad to me, I couldn't be here without imagining Barry and iris kissing
"I wanna start your training by having you work on making people feel emotions. You need to learn that before anything else. You have a lot of emotional connections to this place" he informed, pulling his hood around his head more. I assumed it was in case someone like HR came In here while we trained.
"Let's sit" he said and he pulled me to the back, and he scoped out the room.
"So now what?" I commented as I looked around the place, how could I train here?
"You're wearing the bracelet" he nodded and smiled, "it helps control and focus your powers. Let's go back to this morning, make someone feel... hate" he said and tapped on the red stone. I looked around briefly
"Why am I letting you train me again? I should be trying to escape you" I said to him with a glare
"You'd never learn to control your powers, and where would you go? Back to Barry? To star labs to help him save iris?" He said, and the more he spoke the more anger I felt. He smirked at me and motioned for me to continue. I turned and glared at the first person I seem, a young girl who was sitting there talking on the phone. The more I focused on her and what she might be saying into the phone, the more aggravated she seemed to get. I pictured seeing Barry and iris kissing and my hand clenched. The girl hung up her phone and slammed it down on the table, making a shattering sound. Savitar laughed beside me and touched my shoulder.
"Stop." He said softly, and all at once I felt my anger go away and the girl lost her fire as well.
"How did you-?" I questioned him in shock, but he tapped my bracelet.
"It's as simple as focusing and telling yourself to stop when you have this on." He informed me, and I nodded along.
"Still want to run away?" He questioned me softly.
"I don't have a reason to, I guess." I responded and I looked back around the room, before seeing a little girl crying as she looked down at her spilled ice cream. Without thinking, I shoved happy thoughts at the kid. A faint gold glow came from my bracelet and the little girl stopped sniffling and hugged her mom instead. Savitar nodded approvingly, then raised his brow when he seen me giving him an odd look
"What? Do you think I don't have a heart?" He comments with a slightly cold tone, "I still have Barry's compassion, but I have my own determination" he said and shrugged. I gave him a small nod, and was about to speak, but then he turned and looked away, hiding his face
"Hey I didn't mean to make you upset" I said as I now felt bad about that. He shook his head and motioned to the door
Team flash came walking in the door with tired expressions. They didn't smile or laugh as they sat down. Iris sat next to Barry as Cisco got up to get drinks. I noticed Katelin wasn't around.
"They can't see us I don't think" I commented to him, "or maybe I really am that invisible to them" I said in annoyance
"(Y/n)-" he starts to say and I cut him off by tapping my nails quietly on the table next to us. He frowns and then watches the group.
I kept tapping my finger nails on the table and I started at barry with slight hate. How could he cheat and then bring her so easily here? This had been our date spot!
I watched Barry for a while longer, remembering all the hurt I felt then. Barry slumped back in his seat and closed his eyes, and I seen him rubbed his eyes. He looked upset now. I glanced at iris, who looked oh so concerned for him. Where was her concern for me? I was supposed to be missing and they were getting coffee! Iris turned to Barry and said something in a clipped tone, I couldn't hear it all but she sounded annoyed. I glanced at my bracelet and realized I was doing this to them, and I loved it. I loved making them fight, they deserved it.
I focused on Barry and tried to force feelings of regret and loving about me into his head, and from the way he looked at iris while she scolded him for not talking to the group more, it was working.
"(Y/n), you might need to-" I shushed savitar as I went back to work. I slowly moved closer to their table, still far out of sight. But now I could hear them.
"You've been acting so different lately, ever since she got taken. I thought you loved me, not her. Was I wrong?" Iris said to him as I forced more hate and resentment onto her.
"I- she was my oldest friend iris, before even you. And because of me, because of us, she's been taken. Savitar could be hurting her right now. He could have killed her. He could have, uh" he paused as he swallows hard, not wanting that image in his head. "He could've forced her into anything. We don't know what he would do while he has her. But whatever happens, it's because of me. It's because of you" he spoke as I mixed in a little resentment towards iris along with fear. I was having too much fun doing this to them. I glanced at Cisco, since he'd came back with coffee.
"Guys, calm down, we are gonna find them both." He said in a hopeful tone, but I forced iris to almost her breaking point of anger
"It isn't my fault you dated her! You were so happy to be with me, but once she is gone you act like I'm nothing to you! You know what Barry, I think you'd liked having us both!" She yelled.
"No, I didn't! I didn't ask you to suddenly love me back! You did that. I'd moved on and you came waltzing in to ruin everything! I was going to propose to her! But you-! You had to drag my old feelings for you out! And for what?!" He yelled back, and honestly, it was one of the first times I'd heard him yell. I didn't even process that he said he was going to ask me to marry him. Iris was too mad, I wasn't sure I could even tone her down now. I seen iris raise her hand, then The load CRACK came next. Barry's face was turned to the side, thanks to the surprise slap, and I suddenly found it easy to make them calm down. Iris looked shocked about how she'd reacted, but Barry's face didn't change, I tried to stop effecting him, and I realized I had. Whatever he felt now was real.
"Barry I'm so sorry I don't know what came overme-" iris said quickly and Barry just stood up.
"I think I need to calm down." He spoke and got up to leave jitters. I started to get up and follow him, but a hand landed on my shoulder, then we were flashed out of the place.
Once savitar had taken me back to the warehouse, he looked at me with a mix of annoyance, pride, concern, and... something else
"That really messed up Barry." He spoke as he looked me over.
"How do you know" I asked softly as I felt my body relax now. I felt so at ease...
"Whatever he remembers, I remember. Well, up until he creates me that is..." he explained, then moved and cupped my cheek.
"I don't know what came over me but..." I told him as I looked up into his eyes, "it felt right."
"You love your games," he said wistfully, probably thinking back to memories of stuff we'd done, things that for me, hadn't happened yet. "But you can't have outbursts like that again. You gotta control it. Keep the emotions in check for both you and the person You're affecting. Otherwise you might hurt someone."
"Like I did with Barry" I answered, and he nodded along.
"He thinks I'm here forcing and beating you. He blamed himself... and he is trying to track you down as we speak.." he answered as he thought, probably receiving those memories
"Maybe I should see him." I answered softly
"What?" Savitar asked with a worried look, "why would I let you-?"
"I need to talk to him. Tell him to abandon hope for me. He won't, but I need to talk to him." I reasoned, and after a little more talking in convinced savitar to let me meet with Barry.