Daddy issues and the self love//BWS

15. James go fuck yourself

I'm a wrack a mess I'm laying in my bed for a week crying over a guy why? Because I have feelings for him and why I have feelings for him? Because he's the only who cares about me and doesn't judge me, I know brad was drunk but I can't help but feel like he wanted to get of rid of me.

Brad tried calling me all week but stopped during the weekend, I guess he finally given up or James finally got in brad head and what thinks about me, but you know what! James can go fuck himself I don't gave a shit about him, as for brad honestly I don't know what to about brad. I haven't been working with them I guess they on break or something but I have been working with Shawn and I guess what brad ever say to him a couple weeks Shawn has been treating me like a person and not a slut which is nice, and I found it he's a great guy.

I wonder brad is thinking about me right now? I mean probably not because he hasn't tried to call me since Friday evening, so I'm probably a lost to him now which doesn't surprise me I'm that to everyone.

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I'm fucking doing it I'm up brad hotel ready to come see him and talk to him, a nice arctic monkeys shirt and a blue jean skirt with ankle high boots look nice right? Ugh why I'm so nervous why am I doing this, isn't supposed to be the other way round, oh god what's happen I knock and a girl opens my heart will be crushed, I need to stop overthinking.

I walk in the lobby of the hotel nervous and scared, I pressed the lift and it opens and I step in, two other people inside once I look up I sigh why god hates me? Why.

"Well Madison all the guys you fuck decided they didn't want you so you came back for Bradley." James rolls his eyes and I bite my lip trying not pushed back down on the lift.

"Shut up James." Dean scoff at him and give me a small smile which I gave back.

"What just specking the truth, I mean look at her outfit of course she wear something revealing." James scoffs.

"You know James you always say something bad about me but what you think how Kirsten feels when you post a picture of your body naked too much or that every time you post a picture of you both you insult her? She loves you but when you're being ass 24/7  to her she starts crying to me and guess what James I'm always there for her when you're not because you're too busy on your phone to notice the sweet things she does for you, you to worry about other people that you can't notice Kirsten showing you love and support so before you insult me again think of how much of a dick you are." I finally let out and James looks shock while dean mouth falls open.

Finally the lift open on brad floor but before I go.

"Bye dean, and James go fuck yourself." I smile innocently and the lift closes

Here I am brad door, I can't believe I'm doing this for the guy I care about so much here I go, I knock on the door and I hear faint movements then the door opens and I'm face to face with a messy hair, red eyes brad looking at me with shock.

"Ma-Maddie." Brad stutters and I smile.

"Hi brad."

"Um please come in." Brad moves aside for me to get in, I step in and I notice clothes scatter around the floor and some on his bed.

"Sorry about the mess but I wasn't expecting anyone." Brad Saids nervously but I just shake my head.

"I'm here brad because I want to know what happen that night in Newcastle." I say as I sit on his bed.

"Okay well me and you were having fun at the bar but we decided to go back to the hotel, so you went to tell the boys and the girls and while you were gone a girl come up and give a smirk but i just gave her a small smile, then I turn my back on my drink but she came closer and ask if I was alone and I said no but she wouldn't leave me alone and next thing I know her lips on mine, I guess my drunk mind kissed her back but my heart was trying to push her off. Because I never want ruin what we have even if it just sex I need you Maddie because I'm some what have feelings for you and I know no strings attached but I don't care I like you and care about you to much to let you go." Brad Saids biting his lips and tears came through my eyes and I walk towards him.

"I'm sorry what I said I do care about you and everything about you, I was just angry and hurt." I say and wrap my arms his torso.

"I understand does this mean I can see you again?" Brad asked hopelessly and I nod smiling.

Brad press his lips against mine giving me a sweet long kiss that's was well needed, I miss his lips just like the rest of him.

"What have you been doing since Newcastle?" Brad asked.

"Crying missing you, working, then came here got in a lift with James and dean then tell james go fuck Himself." I smile innocently at that last sentence which makes brad chuckle.

"That's my girl." Brad throws me on his bed and gets on top of me and kiss me deeply.

"I'm crazy about you."

"And I'm crazy about you."

As cheesy has it sounds but brad is my oxygen something I need every day but I'm too scared to feel it.
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And they done, how you guys liking it so fair I been working on this for a while so bare with me