he died when he was 18 ✞ larry ✔

thank you x

[this is [not] exactly what i wrote down in the german version two years ago]

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i know the story is short and makes everyone sad but she also means a lot to me.

in this story louis' hurts himself.
i think i'm not the only one here reading this that struggled or is struggling with self harm. maybe someone reading this has depression or even suicidal thoughts.

i'll just speak to the reader;

imagine you're louis, okay?
everyday you let your family think that you're alright and everything is just wonderful but no one notices that you're dying inside.

now imagine that your friends/family are harry. they think you're fine and that everything is good. sometimes they notice something is off but play it down by saying you probably just had a bad day.
you get worse, but they don't think twice and continue doing their stuff.

and then you made a decision. you take a blade, buy yourself some sleeping pills or take a walk to the next high bridge.

your family is going to think it's their fault that you're gone,
even if you write the opposite in the letters you left for them.

your friends will cry, praying that this is just a fucked up joke and waiting for you to text them on whatsapp. but no, soon they will realise that you won't come back.

and that's a fact. once you take that step and really decided to take your life, there is no going back.

once you're gone, you're gone.

and if you ever say that no one would give a fuck if you weren't here anymore, then that would be a fucking lie.
someone loves you and they would cry because you're not there anymore. someone would miss you the way harry misses louis here and the pain would never go away.

you matter and if you think about killing yourself: this right here is your sign not to do it.
there will be better days, you just have to stay fucking strong and please don't give up.

what i want to say with this confusing text is that you all are loved and wanted.
you're important for someone and no one can replace you.

you're special.
your smile makes someone's day and your bad puns may make others roll their eyes but they also love you for it. all these things, good and bad are making you
YOU

and you should never give up.

life's a bitch but you're an even badder bitch so fuck life in the ass and keep going.

love,

tina.

06.10.18