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I Can't Believe I Was Actually Falling For Him . I Was Slowly Falling For Chresanto August . Then I Started To Quietly Laugh To Myself . What Am I Doing ? Im Joyslin Valdez For God Sakes. I Just Stood In That Dump &&' Listened To Him Call Me A Bitch Right In Front Of My Face? Uh No , That's Not How Things Roll Around Here.
Then My Thoughts Were Interrppted By Jenni Getting In The Car. I Hurried Up And Wiped The Tears In My Eyes Before She Could See Them.
" Look I - Hold On , Were You Crying Over Him ? " She Said Looking At Me .
" Me ? Crying Over Him ? Nah, You're Crazy . I Think My Contact Is Irritaing Me, I Think It's Torn Or Something . " I'm A Horrible Liar.
" Oh Good. Cause I Was Going To Say , Don't Waste Your Time Crying Over Him. Trust Me , I Live With The Boy. He's Definitely Not Worth It . " Well It Seems Like My Lie Worked. Then Jenni Reached Under Her Seat And Pulled Out A Knife.
" And What Are You Planning To Do With That ?! " I Asked Curiously. She Looked At Me Crazy.
" What Do You Think I'm Gonna Do With It ? Use It ! Those Dirty Ass , Wanna - Be Thugs In There , Trying To Touch All Up On Me Like I'm One Of Their Hoes ?! Uh, No ." While She Was Talking She Was Moving The Knife Around With Every Word. She Kept Getting Closer And Closer. " Woah , Woah , Woah . I'm Gonna Need You To Back Up With That Thing. "
" Oops, My Bad. But Let Me Go Get This Light Skinned Nigga. " She Said Rolling Her Eyes .
" Do You Seriously Have To Go Get Him ? I Suggest We Just Leave His Ass . " I Said Emotionless. I Was Acting Like I Didn't Care On The Outside, But On The Inside I Was Dying.
" Hmm, That's A Good Idea , But That's Still My Little Brother . . That Annoys The Hell Out Of Me . Well, I'll Be Right Back, Let's Hope I Don't have To Use This Knife. Oh And If You Need It , Ruby's In The Glove Compartment. "
" Ruby ? " I Hope It's Not What I Think It Is .
" Yep, My 9mm Gun , I Got It For My 7th Birthday And Had Her Ever Since ." And With That Statment She Left.
My Mouth Dropped Open . This Girl Is A Straight Thug . Who Get's A Gun For Their 7th Birthday ?! Not Me , I Got Barbies. I Opened The Glove Department And Pulled Out The Gun. I Was Being Extra Careful On How I Hold It, Cause I Had No Idea What I Was Doing.
The Gun Was Pink With Rhinestones On It. It Also Had Her Name Engraved In It. I Opened The Gun , And The Bullets Were Pure Gold. I Was Still Admiring The Gun When I Heard The Door Open &&' That Deep Voice. Chresanto .
" Jenni All That Shit You Did In There Wasn't Even Necessarry, Show Off " Chresanto Said Sounding Angry .
" I Had To Let Em Know Who I Am &&' You Just Mad, Cause You Got Embarressed " Jenni Said Laughing.
I Decided To Look At Chresanto, When I Looked Back It Just So Happened That He Was Looking Right At Me && ' We Made Eye Contact . I Quickly Turned Back Around And Took A Deep Breath . This Was Gonna Be A Long Car Ride .
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After A Car Ride That Felt Like Eternity , We Finally Made It To My House.
" Well Thanks For The Ride Back Jenni " I Said.
" No Problem " She Said Smiling. Then I Just Remembered My Bookbag Was In The Backseat. .&&' So Was Chres. Ugh. " Um, Can You Hand Me My Bookbag Please ? " I Asked Nervously. I Don't Even Know Why I Was Nervous . It's Just My Bookbag , Not A Big Deal . Gosh , It's Him . He Handed Me My Bookbag . " Uh Thanks " . " Sure . . " . The Jenni Piped In, " Awkward . . Guess We'll See You Tomorrow ? " . " Yeah " . I Said Plainly .
I Shut The Car Door , And Walked In The House. And To No Suprise At All , No One's Home . I Go In The Kitchen And Drop My Bookbag In The Counter. I Went To The Fridge And Got Out A Bottle Of Water . I Couldn't Get My Mind Off Of Chres.
I Sighed , Grabbed My Bookbag And Went Upstairs To My Room. I Took Off My Shoes, And Then Flopped On To My Bed. This Has Been A Long Ass First Day. I Got My iPhone and Put It On My Dock And Turned On Drake . And Before I Knew It, I Slowly Started To Drift Off To Sleep.
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I Wake Up And Look Over At My Clock And It Reads 12:30am . After 30 Minutes Of Just Staring At The Ceiling Realizing I Couldn't Go Back To Sleep, I Just Decided To Go For A Walk. I Put On Some Sweatpants With My Varsity Jacket , And My Adidas Slides.
I Grabbed My Phone &&' My Headphones, And Walked Down The Stairs Quietly Making Sure No One Heard Me, But I Was Interruppted By Jacob. " And Where Do You Think You're Going " He Asked Standing Against The Doorframe With His Arms Crossed. " Out , Now Act Like You Never Saw Me Leave". " Whatever."
I Walked Outside, And Put In My Headphones, And Started Listening To Frank Ocean. I Kept Walking To Wherever My Feet Were Taking Me . I Ended Up In The Park. While I Was Walking I Could Have Sworn I Saw Something Out Of The Corner Of My Eye. I Turned , And Saw Nothing . I Just Shook It Off And Kept Walking. But Then I Started To Get That Feeling That Someone Was Watching Me . Now My Imagination Is Playing With Me . So I Sat Down On The Nearest Bench . I Put My Head Back And Closed My Eyes. I Sat There Until I Felt Someone Else Sit On The Bench Too. I Opened My Eyes &&' Turned My Head. And There He Sat .
Chresanto .
He Was Saying Something But I Couldn't Hear Him. So I Took Out My Headphones To Listen To Him .
" I'm Sorry " . That's All He Simply Said .
