↠ just a little bit of your heart ↞ l.s

two

louis's pov

-flashback-

"please no! you can't do this to me! you can't do this to us!" i pleaded, hot tears running down from my eyes. i could feel my eyes stinging from crying so hard, even if it wasn't for long ago.

"louis stop. i can't do this anymore. i need something more." the black-hair with brown eyes replied gruffly, as he pushed me away from him. "i can give you it! please don't leave me! i love you so much, please.." i begged weakly, still clinging tightly onto his leg.

"no, it's all too late." he replied in a firm tone. that's when i knew, he really wanted it to end. he wanted us to end. i shook my head and stood up. i started taking off the jacket that he bought for me, and pushed myself on him. "louis no!" he shouted. "isn't this what you wanted?!" i asked and pressed my lips against his neck.

he pushed me away, hard. making me fall to the ground, feeling weaker. "louis i'm sorry. i may or may not have cheated on you in between our relationship. that's why i said i didn't want this anymore!" my eyes widened at the truth. "did you.. really..?" i asked softly. he let out a sigh and nodded.

"zayn, please tell me this isn't real." i said bitterly.

"i'm sorry louis."

was the last words he said, then he left the apartment. the apartment that was once filled with warmth and joy, now it's cold and empty.

after a few hours of crying in the same exact position he pushed me off. i stood up and wore the jacket he bought me as went to the nearest club. i needed to get my mind off things. now that we're over, he won't be able to control me anymore. and just maybe a little part in me wanted him to control me.

what am i going to tell my friends when they ask me about the break-up? oh, we broke up because i wouldn't let him fuck me? that's just so stupid.

i know i should've done it with him, but i just couldn't bring myself to. i was scared. however, there was that one time, we were so close to doing it, until i chickened out. i just couldn't do it. i don't know what it was. i just didn't want him in me.

i entered the club filled with people and ordered 7 shots, and downed them almost immediately when it came. which got me high pretty quickly. soon, i was on the dance floor, dancing and grinding on people whom i don't know.

then i saw a really attractive man, looking at my way. due to the alcohol, i was filled with confidence. so i continued to smirking at him until he came to me, offering me a drink. which of course, i accepted. who could resist those beautiful green eyes?

i didn't know what came in my mind, but when his hands brushed against mine, it went straight to my little friend down there. i gulped. how could i feel this with a stranger but not with zayn?

"my name's harry." the stranger spoke.

"louis."

i could tell that he was about to speak, so i hushed him, placing my finger on his luscious, pink lips. "skip the sweet talks and let's get straight into it." i didn't mean to say that, but it slipped past my lips.

and soon, i found myself staring at the hotel ceiling, with this attractive stranger named harry next to me, who is almost falling asleep.

just how.. how could i just give myself away to a stranger but not to my ex-boyfriend of 1 year and half? i turned to look at the stranger next to me, and smiled softly. his curls are so beautiful..

i quickly snapped out of my thoughts. no! i can't be thinking of this! i literally just broke up with my boyfriend like 6 hours ago!

i groaned and tried to get out of harry's grip without waking him up. which i failed.

"louis?" he asked in a small voice, which i find it cute. i didn't reply. "please stay?" he asked almost in a child-like voice. i teared up slightly for god-knows-what-reason. i'll just stay and wake up before he does, and leave. so i stayed.

when i woke up in the morning, i thank god for the sleeping harry. i quickly wore my clothes and left the hotel, feeling slightly bad for leaving him without notice. but again, he was just a stranger.

and i knew if i gave him any informations about me, i would just get attached to him, because i'm in a really vulnerable state right now.

-present-

so how did i end up here, sitting in a café, in front of the same green-eyed boy whom i didn't want to get attached to?

i played with my fingers, while he stared at me with a slight smirk on his face. i rolled my eyes. curse this person for being so attractive. oh boy, i'm going to get so attached.

-tbc-