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ten

louis's pov

the bell rang, signalling the school has ended. when i walked to the gate, i saw harry waiting for me as per usual. i smiled to myself and made my way towards him. we were about to leave to god-knows-where when someone called out to me.

"louis?"

i turned back and my heart dropped at the person before me.

"zayn." i said weakly.

the brunette boy smiled and walked closer towards me and harry. i unknowingly grabbed onto harry's arm. "w-what do you n-need?" i stuttered, not looking at the boy before me.

"well.. i was wondering if we could talk you know." zayn smiled lightly. i looked at him in confusion. i cleared my throat. "i don't think there's anything for us to talk about." i replied coldly.

"louis please. i need to talk to you. give me at least 10 minutes alright? 15 minutes maximum." zayn pleaded. my breathing hitched. "m-me and harry are going to hang out. i'm sorry." i was about to walk away when zayn grabbed onto my free hand, turning me towards him.

"hey!" i heard harry spoke in anger behind me. zayn looked at harry with pleading eyes.

"please harry. this is really important." he said before looking at me again. "please louis?" he asked, placing his hands on my shoulders. i turned to look at harry with scared eyes. i really don't want to be here.

then harry came closer to me and kissed me on the head. "it'll be okay lou. i'll be waiting for you at home okay." he whispered into my ears. home. i felt my face heat up and before i knew i was blushing. "o-okay." i stuttered. harry smiled before walking away. now it's me and zayn. alone.

"how about we head to the café?" zayn suggested. i shook my head. "here would be fine." i mumbled, leaning back on the school's gate. "come on lou, don't be stubborn." before i knew it, zayn was dragging me to the closest café from my school.

zayn ordered a milkshake for me even though i rejected the offer politely. so here i am, sipping on the strawberry milkshake while looking everywhere except for the brown-eyed boy in front of me.

"louis, look i know the reason you left that day. you were uncomfortable weren't you?" zayn started off. okay, so he knows, so why is he asking me? i shrugged my shoulders in response.

"look, i'm sorry for making you uncomfortable. i know the fact that i've cheated on you is harsh on you. but i want you to know that i'm really happy with liam right now." zayn explained, his voice filled with sorry.

then there was an awkward silence. i mean what does he want me to say?

"i know this might sound selfish. but i really hope we can be friends, louis." as soon as those words slipped out of his lips, i felt anger boiling in me. "friends?" i asked in grimace. "you want us to be friends? after what you did to me?"

"i know-" "no you don't know! you don't understand do you, zayn? i'm still not over you, can't you see that!" i blurted out. i'm fully aware that i have attention on me right now, but i didn't care.

i looked at zayn whose looking at me with his lips quivering. "it has been 2 months, zayn. and the fact that you left me still hurts like shit. i love you so fucking much." that's when i felt my chest start to hurt. i put my hand on my chest, breathing heavily. zayn looked at me worriedly. he was about to stand up to walk towards me when i stopped him.

"but louis, it has been 2 months." zayn tried to reason. "i thought you've already moved on." he continued. i shook my head, tears starting to well up in my eyes.

"you need to move on louis. liam and i are getting engaged in 2 months. i'm sorry but i don't love you anymore." ouch. i know that he doesn't love me anymore, but hearing that in real life hurts even more.

"i'm sorry louis, i really am." he said in a quieter tone.

"where did i go wrong?" i asked meekly. "oh louis, it was me. i'm the bastard. i just needed some love, so i looked for it. trust me louis, your love was sufficient, but it just isn't for me." my chest started to hurt even more. i gave him almost everything, but he decides that my love isn't for him?

i just nodded, not wanting to say anything. i just want to be in harry's arm right now.

"louis, please. let's be friends please." zayn pleaded. his hands slowly making their hands to mine. i flinched when he put his hands on top of mine, but didn't pull away.

"okay." i said after awhile. zayn's eyes lit up and he smiled brightly. "great! i'm sorry that it was a selfish request, but i just thought that this was the best for us!" zayn chirped. "oh! perhaps you can be the best man at my wedding too!" he winked.

maybe he saw the look on my face and softened. "sorry, too much?" he asked and i nodded. then he apologised again.

"anyways.. i'm just saying, harry likes you alot. i can tell." he said. "yeah. he do." i blushed at the name. "you know, he might be the right one for you." and that sounds really weird coming from the person whom i thought was the right one for me. but i shrugged it off.  "maybe."

"alright. i don't want to waste anymore of your time. give me your phone number? i know i gave you mine, but i figured you won't make the first move." so i gave him my number.

then we left the café.

i was trying to process what just happened as i made my way to harry's apartment. home.

before i knew, i was standing in front of his door. i knocked on the door, and the door opened almost immediately. the man that i wanted to hug is right there before me.

i couldn't help it but fall into his embrace, sniffing in his scent. he hugged back immediately. then he pulled me into his apartment, closing the door behind him. he then proceed to lift me up, and i wrapped my legs around his waist. then he made his way to the couch.

after a few minutes of cuddling, he broke the silence. "what did you guys talk about?" the curly headed boy asked. i let out a heavy sigh. then i explained everything to him.

he sighed and pulled me closer to him if it was possible, and he entertwined our fingers together in the process. then he kissed my head.

"hey harry?"

"yes baby?" i couldn't help it but i felt butterflies in my stomach when he called me the nickname.

"when i learn to love you one day, will my love ever not be enough for you?" i asked in a small voice. then he pulled me away from him slightly, making me look at him. "louis. you are enough for me. even just being here like this with you, i'm already content." he spoke, looking deeply into my eyes. i blushed and hid my face in his chest.

"please don't ever get tired of waiting for me."

"never."

-tbc-