↠ just a little bit of your heart ↞ l.s

fourteen

louis's pov

i frantically knocked on zayn and liam's door, hoping that they'll quickly open the door. which fortunately, they did. but they were slightly irritated.

"who is it- oh! louis? what are you doing here?" liam's expression changed when he saw me, sweating like a pig. yes. i ran all the way here after school. it has been 2 days since the date, and i still haven't gave harry my reply.

obviously, the answer would be yes. but am i really ready for another serious relationship? i'm just scared that i would fuck this up over again, and i really don't want to lose harry.

so today, i've been trying to avoid the topic of hanging out together with the green eye lad when he asked. just so i could find zayn and liam for some consultation. i just figured that zayn would understand me and help me out. since he did know me best.

"i really need to talk to you and zayn." i blurted and scurried inside their apartment, dragging liam to sit on their couch with me. "who is it, babe?" i heard zayn saying from the bedroom. "it's louis!" liam replied. then zayn came out of his room, and sat in front of me and liam.

"so how did your date with harry go?" liam asked in a cheeky tone, winking. i felt myself tense alittle. "that's actually the reason why i'm here." i mumbled, looking down.

i heard zayn gasped, and i looked at him. "did it go bad?" zayn frowned. i quickly shook my head. "no no no. it went great, perfect actually!" i quickly said. "so what's the problem?" liam asked, concerned.

"look, i really like harry. like a lot. and he asked me to be his boyfriend." zayn and liam squealed when they heard that. "so?" they asked in unison. "that's the problem! he asked me to be his boyfriend!" i ran my fingers through my hair in frustration.

the couple frowned in confusion. "sweetie, i don't understand. what do you mean?" zayn asked. i let out a heavy sigh.

"see, i'm not sure if i'm ready for another relationship. i really like harry alot, but i'm scared that i'm not enough for him. i don't want him to leave me when that happens. and i certainly don't want to hurt the boy.." i finally explained. i heard zayn sigh.

"this is because of me, innit?" zayn lowered his head. "look, you can't let harry go, just because of what happened to you with me! harry and i are two different people. louis, i'm really sorry for what i did. but seriously, give harry a chance. the bloke loves you so much. i can see it." he continued.

"zayn's right." liam agreed. "and i know, because the lad basically freaked out the whole week as the date was getting nearer." he added on.

i looked at them, unsure. "he really does love you, alot. more than i had." zayn smiled. and for some reason, i didn't feel any sadness when zayn said that harry love me more than he did. all i could think of is harryharryharryharry. which made me feel butterflies in my stomach.

i nodded with a small smile on my face. "okay.. so what do i do now?" i asked, breathless just from the thought of harry. "go find him!" the couple shouted in unison, once again. i smiled at their cuteness. maybe zayn being together with liam is for the best. they complete each other, just like soulmates.

soulmates. i wonder if me and harry are like that too.

"okay. i'm going to find harry now." i repeated after them while grabbing my bag and standing up. then i walked towards the door, opening it.

"any last words?" i asked the couple, whom i surely will give my blessings to, and be their best man during their wedding.

"go get him!" zayn cheered. liam stood next to him, nodding.

"oh! and get him some flowers!" liam shouted. i smiled at them, thanking them before i closed the door. i let out a shaky sigh, and made my way towards the closest flower store.

then i bought a bouquet of carnation and lily. i'm not sure if harry understands the significance of each flower, but i certainly do.

as soon as i bought it, i figured that i couldn't wait any longer to see harry. so i ran to his apartment.

now, i'm knocking on his door nervously. "coming." i heard him say from the other side. and somehow from that one word, it made me feel tingly just from hearing his voice. i quickly hid the bouquet of flowers behind my back before he opened the door.

when he finally opened the door, i smiled widely at him. he looked at me, wide-eyed. "oh my god. i thought you wouldn't come today." he spoke and hugged me tightly. before i noticed, he was carrying me to his bedroom. and i tried my best to make sure he didn't notice the flowers, which he surely did.

"there's no need to hide that bouquet of flowers anymore, babe." he whispered deeply in my ears, which made my face flushed. "why are we in your bedroom?" i asked as he put me down on his bed. "my living room's pretty messy." he shrugged.

"so what's this for?" he pointed at the flowers. i blushed slightly and gave him the bouquet. "this is for you.." i mumbled, looking away from him. and i swear i could hear him smirking.

then he squatted in front of me, making sure that he's in my sight. "any particular reason?" he asked cockily. and i could feel my face becoming hotter, and my heartbeat pace was increasing rapidly. my breathing starts to hitch.

"r-remember on s-saturday? well.. erm.." then i felt his finger on my chin, lifting my chin up so i could look at him properly, in the eyes. "mhm." he responded.

"y-yes."

"yes what, baby?" he teased.

"to the question!" i raised my voice. "i don't know what question you're talking about, louis." he whispered my name, which for some reasons made me feel aroused. no! that is not what i'm here for!

then i took a deep breath, regaining my normal heartbeat. then i looked at him straight in his beautiful green eyes.

"yes, harry styles. i'll be your boyfriend." there it is. i finally said it. then i saw tears forming in his eyes. "w-why are you cry-" i was cut off when he hugged me tightly.

"you have no idea how happy i am right now. i've been waiting for this since the day i met you, louis." he spoke shakily. i put my hands on his back, patting him soothingly.

"oh baby, you're enough. you're enough for me." and harry whispered the same thing repeatedly for the next few minutes.

now we're on his bed, cuddling while he was playing with the bouquet of flowers. and i was playing witj his hair. his head was on my stomach, and my hands were in his hair.

"you have really curly hair." i pointed out the obvious. i didn't know what to say. i was really nervous. that was our first cuddling session as boyfriends! big fucking deal!

he chuckled cutely. "hey, what does these mean?" he asked, looking at the flowers. i smiled lightly. "the carnation is for pure love, the lily is for refined beauty." i explained.

then he looked up at me. then he turned on his stomach, now he was playing with my ears instead of the flowers. "so you love me too?" he asked in a playful tone. "why else would i want to be your boyfriend?" i replied sassily.

"but hey, it might be alittle to early to say that i love you. but i think i love you." i continued, looking into his eyes. he smiled. "well lou, i know i love you." i smiled back at him.

wow. harry styles is my boyfriend. i wonder if he's thinking the same thing as i am.

little did he know, harry was thinking the exact same thing.

-tbc-