As I walked through the house I could feel the eyes on me, everyone was looking at me, treating me differently and the whole atmosphere of the house wasn't normal. I knew exactly why.
Today is one year, 365 days since my beautiful Liza past away. It doesn't get any easier, I think I miss her more with everyday that passes.
I reached into my pocket and grabbed the ring that I carry everywhere I go, it was the promise ring I gave to Liza almost four years ago. Every time I need hope I hold it and I know she is with me.
"I miss you." I whisper before walking into the kitchen. "I need click bait everyone, no one leaves this house you all hear me?" I yelled, god I needed Liza. "Scott go out and put something dumb in the pool, I don't care do what ever I don't have any footage."
"David, shouldn't we all just take a break today, no one is having an easy time." Jason mumbled when Kristen walked in her face stained with tears. I grabbed the ring and stroked the stone in the middle with the pad of my thumb.
"Why? Today is any other day." I said playing dumb, this is not where I wanted to talk about this.
"It's been, a-a year, since she died." Kristen told me while Scott wrapped his arms around her.
"David we know your hurting today, we all are. You guys never got to get married, have kids, or grow old together. She died seven hours after you guys got back together. I can't imagine how hard that must be, talk to us. It's okay to not be okay. But drowning yourself in work today is not going to make this better because at the end of the day, you miss her, a lot we can all see it." Jason told me making my eyes well up with tears, I coughed holding them back.
"Yeah, it's hard but you all knew her, you all loved her. Kristen you guys were fucking attached at the hip. All of you knew her for Liza, not Liza Koshy just like me." I said.
"Yeah your right. I just don't think we should be alone today." Zane spoke up.
"I think I need to be alone so I'm just gonna go home, take the day off." I muttered grabbing my backpack and heading out of the house.
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I was sitting on my couch, all alone needing her more than ever.
Sitting next to me was pookie, and I was staring at the ring and fiddling it in between my fingers.
"Hey baby, I don't exactly know if you can hear me, but I just wanna say that I miss you. It's been a year, and I still think about you everyday. I hope all is well with you up there, I feel you with me through everything. I haven't moved on, and right now I can't see myself ever doing it, you were the only one for me.
The other day I saw that picture of us at the streamys, you were so beautiful that night, you were so beautiful every night. I wish we never broke up, I shouldn't have let you go. I should've stopped the distance so we didn't miss out in your last year. I love you Liza, like a lot. You may be gone but I am so fucking in love with you it hurts." I sighed letting myself cry.
The locked turned and my door opened revealing all my friends, Zane was holding food, Todd was holding blankets, and all the girls were dressed in their pjs.
"We decided, that you are not doing this today. We are gonna watch a movie, eat food, and maybe get a little drunk. But also cry, cause it hurts, but with some food, company, booze, and a good movie you can get through the night David." Heath told me putting a bottle of Rum on the table.
"Guys, thank you but I am not in the mood."
"Me either David, none of us are. We have to be here for each other though. So shut up and accept the company." Corinna said patting my shoulder and sadly smiling.
Zane turned on the movie, Heath poured us all a drink, and Jason was making plates of food.
Kristen held up her shot of alcohol.
"To Liza, a best friend, a girlfriend, a soulmate, and an amazing, brilliant girl."
"To Liza!" The group said in unison.
"To Liza, I guess." I whispered and took the shot, the booze burning my throat on the way down.
We sat up the entire night, sharing memories, moments, crying, drinking, eating, dancing, and watching a movie. They were right, I couldn't be alone tonight.
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authors note
// oof I don't know how I feel about this, it was sorta weird and not something I would normally write but fuck it, I thought it was cute. Tysm for reading it means the world to me. I love you all and diza..
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