i don't care if you're contagious

deer

hurt me.
break my heart.
tear my soul into two.
i always wondered why
when i called out your name
all you called back was 'who?'

as i lost myself
i realized the glass pane
separating us from one another.
as i screamed and cried in the rain
my clothes stuck to my body right.
but you and i cannot be near each other.

magnetic force.
opposites attract
and similarities repel, you know
rebel.
rebel against the system
the system that has held you so.

so as i pace around my room
screaming in my mind, i hear your voice
telling me not to do so
no, i tell you, i don't want to
i'd rather sit and weep
and freeze to death in this snow

this pain in my heart just won't end.
im tired of having fake friends.
waste of tears.
the only thing holding me back is my fear
so i'll sit under my bed and suffer
and when someone walks in i'll stutter.
and in the headlights, i am simply a deer.