"I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness" - Charles and Erik AU - REWRITING

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UPDATED July, 2018

READ THIS: In my country we talk this weird language: Portuguese. So if I wrote something wrong you can feel free to tell me :) and I'm sorry for it.

"What if I say no? What if I let you die alone and never look back and regret my decision? I can put you in the prison. You belong there anyway. You were welcomed here, but you aren't anymore. You make me want to show you how fucked up are my days? This pills make me walk but they can't make my pain go away. Sometimes, I don't know why, but they don't work and I'm forced to use the wheel chair, but let's talk about how much I want to see you alone and one day suddenly go to your house and ask you: Where is your happily ever after? You will see your life ruined. You will be just an unemployed - who wants a wanted serial killer working in their business? - without wife, friends and even money. Erik, the only thing you will have is your mutation and a dark, empty mind."

I can't confront Charles. He is absolutely right. I take a deep breath and make sure I will ignore his warning, because it's definitely a possibility.

"That is why my mutation and my dark, empty mind need your help! I need you. I stole you Raven. "I'm sorry" won't fix it anymore, so what can I do? Charles... You will not waste your time teaching me. I will hear you, follow you and learn how to be a good man. This time I will prove you that I'm here for better or for worse. You don't need to act like you want to be my friend or want us to get closer again."

"Erik, you stole everything I had once and you almost did it all again when you tried to kill Raven. How will I know that you aren't planning to do it again?"

This will make me look weak... I show it to him. I honestly didn't want to, but it was necessary. Now he was looking to them. The 3 bullets. They made me the man I am today. I'm completely lost.

"What are those, Erik?"

He asked me, looking into my eyes.

"The first is the bullet that almost killed you, the second is the one that almost killed Raven and the last one is the bullet that almost killed me."

I'm pretty sure now Charles' heart bleeds for me. He couldn't believe. He is like me. He was always blaming himself for everything that happened with us, but this is my fault.

"Erik, why are you doing this to yourself? I thought you didn't care about any of those moments, that's why I was so mad at you."

"You don't understand, do you? Two of these almost made me the coldest killer in the history. (Kill my best friend and the girl I was once in love with?) And the other one was used against me. You said it yourself, this is all my fault. I stole you everything. This just a prove of it."

A tear. I felt a tear in my face. It's too late. I looked at Charles. He was trying to look away and find something nice to say. He doesn't know how to act when someone is crying. He may not know how, but he suddenly wants to fix me. So he put his hand over mine, covering the bullets and that's when I saw it. A tear in his eye. He was crying too. He felt my agony one more time. But why? Why is he crying when this is all my fault. I was the one who did all this shit. I was the one who broke us. Charles meant all the things that he said, but he still cares about me. He was the same Charles.

"I was trying to find out a way to show mutants that they're perfect no matter who they're or what's their mutation. I was trying to be someone in our history. The mutants history."

"You may not be someone in mutants history, but you are in mine." He smiled. "You were my best friend... And trust me... that is remarkable."