Always On My Mind || l.h

CHAPTER 8

We pulled up to my house with Luke pulling in behind us. I still had tears coming out of my eyes and Mum is home.

'Can you just explain it all to mum? i just wanna go upstairs to my room.' I asked Ashton

'Sure' 

'Thank you.'

We got out of the car and walked to the door Luke following us. Ashton opened the door and we surprised Mum who was sitting on the lounge with popcorn. 

'Hey gu- Ally are you okay?' she asked noticing the red mark on cheek and my running makeup.

I nodded and walked away upstairs to my room, I opened my door, I sat down on my bed and pulledout my macbook, i opened twitter and decided to tweet something 

'As I write this letter and shed my last tear, it's all for the better that we end this here, lets close this chapter, say one last prayer, but please don't say that you loved me.'

I watched as my fans grew more and more worried about me. They started hashtags and posted many memory pictures. I felt a tear roll down my face as I looked at all the pictures and nearly everything that was trending worldwide was about me.

Jye came into my mind and I slammed my laptop shut and looked out my window. I got up off my bed and walked over to my window, my emotion went from sad and heartbroken to angry and like I was about to make a guy pay for things. I made a promise to myself that tomorrow when I walk into my school I will have my head high and be strong, because I am strong. I can do this.

I walked over to my desk and grabbed my notebook, I feel song lyrics popping into my head by the minute so i'm writing them down now.

I made my first verse

'I saw it in the news. You told me they were wrong and I stood up for you, cause I believed you were the one'

I watched as my pencil moved across the paper, now came another part

'You had all the chances in the world to let me know the truth. What the hell's wrong with you?'

Another part

'Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what i'm going through? Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me, you're right there but it's like you never knew me.'

I have never written lyrics this fast before... Here comes the next part

'Do you even know how much it hurt, That you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were'

How does this even work?

'I'm so mad at you right now I can't even find the words And you're on the way down I can't wait to see you burn You try to make me hate that girl When I should be hating you What the hell's wrong with you?'

Now I repeat...

'Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what I'm going through? Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me You're right there but it's like you never knew me'

'Do you even know how much it hurt, That you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were (than you ever were) Revenge is sweeter than you ever were'

'Nothing can save you now that it's over I guess that you'll find out when you're no one Don't say you're sorry now 'cause I just don't care'

'Nothing can save you now, nothing Nothing can save you now, nothing'

'Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what I'm going through? You're eyes stare and they're staring right through me You're right there but it's like you never knew me'

'Do you even know how much it hurt, That you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were (than you ever were) Revenge is sweeter than you ever were'

I sat there, startled at what I had just done. This is the fastest I have ever written a song, is it even possible to write a song that fast? I looked up and realised Luke and Ashton were watching me in my room..

'How long have you guys been here?' I asked

'Since you started writing that'  Ashton said pointing at my book

'Did you just write a song?' Luke asked 

'Yeah...' my voice trailed off

'How did you do that so fast? We have been standing in this room for 10 minutes and you managed to write a song that fast?' Luke said

'Well, I guess I had a lot I needed to get out... I don't know.' I said

'yeah...' Ashton trailed off

'So how are you feeling?' Ashton asked

'Okay, i'm not really at the moment.' I said

'Yeah, well luckily for us we've made plans!' Luke said

'What are we doing?' I asked

'It's a surprise.' Luke said

Then Ashton picked me up like you would hold a new born baby and carried me to Luke's car outside. He sat me in the front seat and put my seatbelt on. Luke walked over to the drivers seat and Ashton jumped in the back seat.

I wonder what we were going to do....