judge me | g.d.

14 - ring

ethan - tuesday night

  i pull up to the restaurant and kiara's sat on a bench, her head hung low. she's fiddling with something on her finger but she glances up when she hears my car. she smiles lightly and gets in before i drive off towards wherever we're going.

  the drive is silent for a little bit unt i decide to speak up. "where should we go?"

  "uh, can we just go to the park," she says and i glance at her. "the park down from your house."

  oh. that's the one grayson goes to a lot. i nod my head and continue driving my gaze trailing over to her a few times.

  she really was beautiful and i can see why grayson is so infatuated with her. she sits with her legs crossed since her dress was tighter. her hands lay on her thighs, folded together. her fingers, again, fiddling with something shining on her hand.

  i pull into the parking lot of the park and i turn the car off, leaving us in complete silence. she holds her left hand up and that's when i get a good look. a rather large diamond sat on her ring finger.

  she sees me looking and quickly tries to hide it.

  "what's that?" i ask referring to the ring she just hid from me.

  "what's what?" she mocks pretending to be dumb.

  "the ring," i say reaching to grab her hand. she obliges and doesn't even try to hide it anymore.

  i pull her hand closer to me and finally see that it's an engagement ring.

  "wow, um, congrats, i guess," i stutter setting her hand back down on the console.

  she looks as if she is about to cry but blinks the tears away before any of them can spill.

  i soften up. "who is it?"

  she sighs big before looking over at me, her eyes bloodshot and glossy. "i don't even know him, ethan. it's an arranged marriage; right after high school i'm getting married. i don't know what to do."

  i'm speechless. i would have never thought that her life was like this.

  she draws in a shaky breath. "what'd you want to talk about?"

  "oh, um, it's nothing now," i say not wanting to bring up what i actually wanted to talk to her about.

  "please don't tell grayson," she begs.

kiara

i don't want to break his heart; if he even likes me.

ethan looks at me and then my finger with the ring. "you know he's gonna find out at some point, right?"

i glare at him. "don't say a fucking word, dolan."

he smirks and chuckles. "i won't, pelton."

i look down and mumble, "thank you."

we sit in silence for a few minutes before he speaks up again.

"you want me to take you home?" he asks starting his car back up.

i'm quick to react. "no, just leave me here, please. i can walk home later."

i get out of the car and leave him to drive off. once he's gone i make my way over to the swings sitting down and slightly rocking myself back and forth.

i stare down at my hand, sliding the ring on my finger again and again. i cant believe this is the life i'm living. i want to love the person of my choice; not my parents. i want someone who will love me back just as much i would him.

he could be my escape from this hell i'm living.

the low rumble of a car pulling up yanks me from my thoughts. i turn around and grayson's black car comes to a stop in the pavement behind the swings.

shit, just what i needed.

i stay still as i hear his car door shut and the sound of him making his way over.

he sits on the swing next to me without a word being said between either of us.

i stop fiddling with the ring so maybe, just maybe, he won't notice it as much. i slide my hand in my pocket trying not to catch attention.

"why are you avoiding me?" he finally asks, his voice hinting the hurt.

i don't reply; i don't know how to.

"kiara, please talk to me," he pleads.

"grayson, i'm sorry," i say my voice faltering as i speak.

he faces me and grabs my chin. "what are you sorry about?"

"i'm sorry about how i feel for you," i admit, regretting the words as they spill out of my mouth.

he looks stunned almost as he moves his fingers from my chin. "what are you talking about?"

i look up at him, my eyes glossy and ready to spill any second. i almost speak but instead i hold my left hand up; showing him the diamond ring that sat on my finger.

in an instant his eyebrows scrunch together and he looks honestly hurt.

"you're engaged?" he asks as if it isn't obvious.

"to someone i don't even know or love."

this makes his face a little redder but he stays silent. we sit like that for a while. just the sound of the birds chirping and the leaves rustling.

grayson stands up out of nowhere as he starts slowly walking away.

"gray wait," i say standing up and walking after him.

he doesn't stop so i grab his wrist and turn him around. his eyes look above me and not at me.

"look at me," i say sternly, wanting nothing but his attention.

he stays still not looking at me but the sky instead.

i try the last thing possible that i know to do. i grab his jaw and pull his face close to mine. his hot breath fanning on my lips as i inch our faces closer. his breath hitches and so does mine. question: where did all this confidence come from?

  answer: no fucking idea.

his hand briefly skims my waist and it sends me over the edge. i pull his face the rest of the way in and connect our lips. at first he doesn't respond but in seconds his lips are moving with mine.

he shuffles us towards his car making my back hit the drivers side door. a small moan escapes my mouth and travels into his as his tongue touches mine.

bolts of energy ignite every vein in my body as our lips part.

small pants leave my mouth. "does this explain it, grayson?"

he doesn't say anything and just kisses me again. immediately i kiss back, savoring the flavor of his lips. i want to kiss them forever.

i never want to stop.

a/n: anotha one. ily all
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