Big Girls Are Beautiful Too

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Today was the day that I go on a date with Chris but I'm thinking I shouldn't go what if you using me I have a weird feeling that something will happen maybe I'm overthinking it maybe I should be happy that someone is interested in my fat ass I looked in the mirror trying to decide on what to wear I called over hope I see you was helping me choose the outfit we end up going with this gray off-the-shoulder dress it, just above my knee but maybe I'm too fat for this do I even look pretty in it I feel like he's going to run for the hills when he see me I'm not worth being seemed with anyways

I need to work on my self-esteem I know I have a low self-esteem but I think it's the years of being put down in the years I've been told that I was in worth even God attention there that you know that you are ugly I had one person told me that I was so ugly that my dad took his life just so he wouldn't see me that made me cry for 3 weeks straight because my dad was shot and killed by something crazy man that wanted to Rob him what do I do

As I washed up got out dried Off through on my deodorant is lotion on my body I slipped on my panties and bra I then went to brush my teeth and get dress when my mom found out that I hear the date and so did my grandma was jumping for joy and even jumping even more high when I found out that I had a friend things was going to look up for me right cuz now that I have a friend and maybe a potential boyfriend I'm overthinking it who I'm kidding no one wants me