The Football Dream (girlxgirl)

It hurts less when you cant feel

4 months had passed since the passing of my mother. The first month or two were a challenge but I used football as a distraction. I had seen a therapist to help talk through my emotions and it helped a lot. I was starting to see more positive and was feeling happier with myself. As for Sam, the missed phone calls and unanswered texts still remained on my phone.

I left in the worst possible way but I had to do it. I was dragging her down and even though I loved her so much I couldn't pull her further into my mess. We hadn't spoken or seen each other since my departure but that was soon going to change.

The crowds of busy people surrounded me as I boarded my flight. I had been offered a place in the LA team, coincidentally Sams team. Even though I couldn't bare see her after how I left things, it was an opportunity I had wanted my whole life and I couldn't possibly ignore it. I was nervous as I hadn't seen my family since my mum died and I knew Sam would be pissed off with me. I did love her. I just wasn't in the right position to love someone. I felt I was dragging her down a path where neither of us wanted to go. I missed her.

My dad had offered me to stay at his apartment until I find my own which I was glad for as I had had enough of hotel rooms. The only thing I would miss about France was Amber. She had helped me through so much even when she didn't agree with how I ended things with Sam. Amber got transferred back to England to play for Chelsea which was a positive move for her. We agreed that we would stay in touch and regularly phone as we had gotten quite close over the past few months and it was fair to say she was my only friend at this point in time.

I was standing outside the apartment door and gently knocked as it was late. My dad immediately wrapped his arms around me and I felt at home. It had been a lonely 4 months and I was glad I could finally be with my dad.

"Hey princess" my dad smiled as he knew I hated that nickname, "How are you?"

"Tired" I simply stated but returned the smile.

"Well I've made some food if you want some? It's your favourite" he smiled walking towards the kitchen. I dumped my bags on the floor and followed my dad, I was then greeted by another woman.

"Hey rose long time no see" Sofia smiled and I soon noticed the bump on her stomach. My jaw dropped and I looked to my dad who was smiling.

"Yeh I was going to tell you a while back but I thought you would be upset by it" my dad said like it wasn't a big thing.

I didn't know how to feel i was shocked, I knew they planned to get married but a baby was something else. Although the thought of a little sibling excited me.

"Upset? This is fantastic news congrats! But I wish you had told me sooner, do you know if it's a girl or a boy?" I asked and saw Sofia nodding her head.

"It's a girl" Sofia smiled and my dad wrapped her arm around her back. I smiled and was glad my dad was so happy. The death of my mum hit him quite hard as after all they were together for a long time, but he had Sofia and she supported him the whole way through. It made me wish I had stuck with Sam and followed my heart.

The next morning was interesting. I was woken up by my brother who thought it would be hilarious to tip water over me. He was accompanied with his girlfriend Lauren coincidentally Beth's sister.

"If you had been awake I wouldn't of had the opportunity to splash you, so technically it's your fault" Zak smirked as we all sat around the table for breakfast.

"Oh you wait I'll get you back don't worry" I snarked back. I drank my coffee but wasn't really hungry so just ate a banana. It was slightly awkward with Lauren but I tried my best for my brother as I knew how much he liked her.