I was sitting outside the bus looking up at the sky, not really thinking about anything, and staring off into space. It was very dark today; it looked as if there would be a storm soon. Usually this would make people sad, but the thought mad me happy. I always did like the rain, especially the petrichor (the smell afterward). I had been there for a while before Evan came out and sat next to me, it took me a few minutes to notice he was there, I must have jumped about a foot up in the air when he started to talk to me.
“What cha’ thinking about?”
“Holy snicker doodle! You scared the crap out of me!”
“Sorry, it’s just too easy. Anyway, what cha’ thinking about?”
“Well right at this moment I’m thinking about how much I want a snicker doodle, and how nice it would be to slap you.”
“Wow, why so violent?”
“It’s not violence, its tough love.”
“Awww, I love you too!”
“I never said I loved you.”
“I’m gonna ignore that, and to rephrase my earlier question, what were you thinking about before I scared you that caused you to not notice me?”
“Nothing”
“Well it must have been something,”
“Nope, just staring off into space.”
“You didn’t sleep well last night, did you?”
“No, not really.”
“You were up last night thinking about your almost kiss with Bill, weren’t you?”
“What!? Who told you about that!?”
“Zach and I tell each other everything.”
“Well then, Zach lied.”
“But he would never lie to me…well except maybe that one time he stole my Aqua Man lunch box last year, but that’s understandable, Aqua Man is pretty epic. He would not however lie to me about this.”
“Well he must of, because all that happened is he fell on me and Zach walked in.”
“Alrighty then, if you say so”
“I do say so.”
“Alright then, I’ll be off now.”
“Where are you going?”
“I must confront Zach about this whole ‘lying to me’ thing. I can’t let this become a nasty habit of his.”
“Have fun with that.”
“Don’t worry, I will.”
He should be talking to me though; I was the one lying to him. I was as a matter of fact up all night thinking about what happened with Bill. I just couldn’t get it out of my mind. Was he actually going to kiss me? And of course when I thought about that the thought of what would have happened if Zach hadn’t walked in on us. Its odd part of me is so mad at him for doing that, would give everything to go back in time to make sure he didn’t. Yet at the same time part of me is ecstatic that he did, most of me is, I can’t kiss him. If I were to do that it would mean I still had feelings for him, and I can’t. Not right now at least. I can’t and I won’t.
“Watch cha’ doing?” Bill said in a sing- song voice as he came over and sat next to me.
“Thinking”
“About…?”
“Snicker doodle.”
“Why?”
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