The Pleasure is Mine [Loki x Reader]

Part 16

Thor's voice echos in my head as i flinch back. I try to play it cool, but the faces of the girls are already telling me, that there seen to much. This was the moment, where Loki and i got split....The girls keep talking to me, how bad this is and that i'm doing the wrong thing.... I am so confused about everything and there are no help, so i run. Out of this hall. Out of this palace! My feet carrying me somewhere near the city. It's quite here. That's what i need. My lungs fill with fresh air and my head goes empty, but my heart is still heavy. I almost kissed Loki! LOKI! And i didn't resisted...How could i, he was so sweet and so soft to me. My heart pounds as i think about him. It's clear that i am falling for him. For Loki! But i can't! This is just not right. I know, that i like him and i enjoy spending time with him, but...there is just no way for us...is there? Why can't love be just easy and simple? I hate it! I bury my head into my hands and just start to scream and cry into them. The cold air is hitting my poor skin, still i don't move.I'm sure i messed up this dress, but i can care less now!

The time past and it's getting cold, so i walk back to the palace. In there i try to keep myself hidden, as i sneak along the hallways, BUT i get caught! (y/n)! Are you okey? I was worried! I'm glad to see you!" Loki. He is truly happy to see me....but i'm not...or at least i try to be not happy. „Did i did something wrong?" His beautyful smile fades. „N.No..I'm just....i..." Never in my life i felt so confused and lost. I feel a tear finds his way down my cheek. Loki steps closer to me and puts his arms around me. „It's okay! Everything is fine. I'm sorry, if i made you feel this way.It's okay, if you don't feel the same way as i do..." Sadniss and disapointment in his voice. I feel the same way, i do, but i can't tell him.But also i can't leave him like that. He gone through a lot and he didn't deserve more pain. „Loki?" He breaks this hug to look me in the eyes. My hands are shivering, because of my emotional mess. „Would you like to go to the wedding..." Uncertained i look at my feet and add almost whispering „..with me?" Quite. I want to run again, but then i feel two fingers under my chin. Now i have to look into his green eyes. It's so easy to lose myself in them. His voice pulls me back to reality. „It would be an honor!" He leans forwart to me and give me a kiss on my forhead. „ Even tho i like to spent time with you, you need to go to bed!" Loki takes my hand. As soon as he touches me, i feel loved. Together we walk along the ways until we end up in front of my door.

Silence! Nobody is saying anything. He is still holding my hand, however we also know, this moment has to end. I'm not strong enough to end it,so he has to. „Well....i guess.. good night?!" It sounds more like a question. A last time i look into his eyes until he let my hand go and leave. Fastly my hand start to feel cold again, yet is till wait until he it out of view, till i enter my room.