y/n pov
corbyn and i have been together for 9 months. and i just don't feel anymore special feelings for him. i mean i love him, but not enough for me to stay with him. we were cuddling on his bed watching riverdale, and i felt the need to end things with him now, so i won't be lying when i say that i love him.
"bean?" i ask sitting up.
"yes babygirl." corbyn says pausing riverdale.
"we need to break up." i say with tears forming
"what do you mean, we need to break up?" corbyn looked at me hurt.
"i don't want to be with you anymore." i say while a tear fell down corbyn's face
"babe, tell me what i'm doing wrong. I can fix it baby please." corbyn says
"i just don't feel any special feelings when i'm around you. it just doesn't feel the same." i say with my head down
"baby please." corbyn says lifting my chin.
"i can't corbyn, i don't want to hurt you." i say with tears bursting out from my eyes
"but your hurting me right now." corbyn says
"corbyn, if i stayed with you i'd be messing with your feelings, it's better for me to just end it." i explain still with tears running down my face.
"baby, please don't leave me." corbyn begs as i stand up to leave.
"it's for the best corbyn." i say not looking at him.
"babe, look at me." corbyn says
"baby look at me now!!." corbyn yells as i turn around slowly and look down at the floor.
"y/n, look at my eyes." i look up slowly
he looks hurt, he looks lost, he looks broken.
"i love you y/n and i'm not letting you go this easily." corbyn says with another tear rolling down his face.
"you can't change the way i feel about you corbyn." i say shaking my head.
"y/n i love you too much to let you go." corbyn says
"but i can't sit here and act like i still love you, when i have feelings for someone else!!" i shout
"who?" corbyns voice squeaked
i look down.
"it's daniel, isn't it?!" corbyn asks disappointed
i nod my head slowly, still looking down.
"i should have known." corbyn says, obviously hurt.
"corbyn, i can't stop myself from falling in love with someone else." i say walking away.
did i fuck up? absolutely. am i gonna miss him? absolutely. did i make the right decision? i think.
i feel really bad, but it is what it is. i moved on and he should too. and yeah it's messed up for me to go from one band member to another one, but i like daniel. i liked corbyn too, but got over it. i'm never gonna stop loving either of them, i just don't really want to date right now. and i don't want to move on to fast anyways, that would hurt corbyn too much. yet again i've already done that too much today.
"y/n please don't leave me." i hear corbyn yell to me. he was running down the stairs as i was about walk out of the house.
he stops me before i leave.
"listen corbyn, i'm sorry it's ending like this, but i don't have the feelings i had for you in the beginning. i will always and forever love you, but i need to love myself before i can love another person. i hope you understand." i say trying to walk away, put corbyn pulled me back.
he pulled me closer and kissed me. i let it happen though, i just needed one final goodbye. we break the kiss and stand there awkwardly.
"i love you y/n." corbyn says
and after that, i was gone.
