For Better or For Worst

Chapter 4: Words

Me: Hello and welcome, lovlies! Now as we all know, schools coming back! Kill me now!

Lucy: Yay, I love school! I get to learn things and slowly feel my inner child fade away with each passing minute of the day!

Me: *smacks her* Anyways, as you can see from the title, well, you probably can't draw anything from it because of how broad it is. Let's just say, a lot of feels are going to be present in this chapter.

Ciel: *gasp* Do I finally get my Sebby back?!

Me: Hmm...what chapter are we on?

Kira: Four.

Me: And twenty minus four is sixteen sooooooo,  *looks at Ciel* Not for another sixteen chapters.

Ciel: *heart breaks*

Me: God, I love ruining children. Anyways, Lets get on with the show! Or dont, you do what you want. Im not your real mom, I can't tell you what to do. Or am I?!

Claude: *dramatic gasp* #plottwist!

Me: Woah. WHO THE FUCK LET YOU IN HERE?!

Kira & Lucy: WE DID!

Me: *tazes them* can't you read the sign?! Who ever lets "it" in here will be tazed and "it" Well be maimed, hung, and quartered!

Claude: *gulps*

(Ciel's P.O.V)

   I took a deep breath before finally gathering the courage to look up and face the little audience I had. I took a quick glance back at Sebastian's body and immediately regretted it. Tears sparked in my eyes and I tried my best to hide them. "I don't exactly know what to say about Sebastian, except that he was my butler," I began.

   "But, thinking back on it, he was much more than that. He was my protector, my friend, my love. I know its not right, for a man to love another man, but I loved Sebastian. I still love him. So much." My eyes began to get glassy.

   "His death, has affected me so much," I said, choking a few tears. I smiled weakly. "I-I can't even go to sleep without crying my heart out as I accept the horrible fact that the love of my life is gone. That I'm alone." The tears were now streaming down my cheeks now and I didn't care if anyone saw anymore.

   "I-I don't want to be alone," my voice cracked. "I-I thought if anything like this ever happened, I'd be alright because I thought I was used to being alone. B-But I'm not. I-I was so used to his warm, loving embrace that I forgot how to go to sleep alone, to be alone, without this crow look I over my shoulder and following me everywhere I went."

   I sniffled. "A-And now, I can slowly feel myself slipping into darkness, because I can't accept the fact that he's gone forever. I-I won't accept that. I-I know he'll always be with me, and I will never, ever, be able to move on, and find someone that's even close to how perfect Sebastian was." I looked up at my audience.

   Tears were running down everyone's faces. I expected it from Grell, Lizzy, and Mey-Rin, and maybe even Finny, but the crying faces of Bard, Tanaka, and Undertaker were startling. Even William, the stone faced reaper had a few tears shining in his eyes.

   "I-I will always love Sebastian, and my life will never be the same without my best friend, and my love," I concluded. I turned to Sebastian's dead body, placing a kiss on his lips and whispering a few words to him before murmuring a small thank you to my friends and sitting back in my seat.

   Undertaker then went back on stage, wiping bloody tears from his eyes. "W-Well thank you for that heartfelt speech, Earl," He spoke shakily. "A-Anyone else?" A few others went after me, by I didn't pay any attention. I was so emotionally destroyed inside with Sebastian's loss and I didn't think I could go on anymore. I probably can't.