Painful Love | Jikook Fanfic

Part 24: Aftermath

Author's POV

The blinding sunlight hit Jimin's pale skin as he groaned and got up only to wince of the sharp pain in his lower body. Just the thought of that, his eyes started to well up. He did love Jungkook. A lot. But that's not a reason for him to let him rape him. That was just so unacceptable from Jungkook's part. His drunken state might make him lose Jimin forever.

After a lot of efforts, Jimin managed to get up and made his way to the bathroom, naked. He stared at himself. At his pale skin littered with purplish-red hickeys all over his body. He started to cry loudly not caring if Jungkook was hearing his cries. He just couldn't process the whole thing in his mind. He felt dirty. Not because Jungkook touched him but because he has been raped by his own husband. That husband that he loved more than anything. More than himself.

He got into the shower and started to scrub himself in all parts where Jungkook had placed wet kisses, where Jungkook had touched him. He felt very dirty. His purity was gone. He started to cry once again but his tears were washed away by the cold water.

After a looong cold shower, he threw on an oversized pink sweater and khaki pants to avoid any tight fitting near his lower area. Jungkook went too far last night. That was a night that will never be forgotten by Jimin. He looked over to see Jungkook sleeping peacefully on his King sized bed with dried cum and sweat of both males on the covers. Jimin sniffled and wiped a tear that he didn't even know fell and went downstairs to cook breakfast for Jungkook, ignoring his life-taking pain.

Later on, Jungkook wake up due to the lack of warmth next to him. He groaned and rubbed his eyes before analyzing his surroundings. Clothes were thrown here and there. The bed sheets were crumpled and covered with a dry sticky substance and sweat.

"Huh...?" He muttered under his breath feeling an extreme headache and that's when memories from last came flashing through his mind. How he was confused. How Sehun took him to a bar. How he got drunk. How he was kissing, touching Jimin everywhere. How he-

"Oh shit shit shit shit...... I-I r-raped him! N-No! Shit!" He continued to mumble these things now even noticing that his eyes were full with tears. He started to remember how he shouted that he loved Jeon Jimin. Yet how could he do this to the first man he ever loved.

He felt disgusted. He felt like a sex freak. He felt like a rapist which he already were. His eyes were becoming red from all the crying. His body was becoming numb thinking that he raped someone and that someone was his love. His one true love. He started crying out loud again, kicking the pillows, the cover, the bed sheet away.

He managed to drag himself to the bathroom and took a cold shower. Soon after he threw on a white T-shirt and blue ripped jeans and went downstairs to look for Jimin. He felt scared that Jimin might've left him. With each step, Jungkook's nervousness increased. He wanted to fall at Jimin's feet and plead him for forgiveness. He wanted to scream to the entire world that he fucking loves Jeon Jimin. But he couldn't. Why? He was scared. Scared of the outcome. Scared of his ego. But little did he know, all these were already planned by a certain someone.

Jungkook's heart sank more and more seeing Jimin humming a sad song and cooking food at the same time. He looked extremely exhausted. Not to mention he no longer looked joyful. He turned pretty dull. He didn't have the same excited and sparkling eyes. In fact they wete replaced by emotionless... Dull... Lifeless... It was as if he lost his lively side with his purity.

Jungkook instantly felt guilty. He wanted to wake up everyday with the sweet voice of Jimin. The same old sparkling brown eyes of Jimin. He just needed to somehow bring that back. How? He still had that to figure out.

He took a deep breath and stepped into the kitchen gaing the attention of Jimin. The latter instantly felt his tears building up once again and quickly avoided eye-contact.

"Good morning." Jungkook greeted awkwardly.

"G-Good m-morning." Jimin's voice slightly cracked showing how much his heart and mind hurt.

"C-Can we talk?" Jungkook asked scratching the back of his neck nervously. Jimin slightly nodded.

"T-Take this p-painkiller f-first. Y-You must h-have a h-headache." Jimin stuttered fighting his own tears. Threatening them not to come out.

"D-Did you take them?" Jungkook asked softly as Jimin looked up to meet the eyes of Jungkook. They showed how much concern and love Jungkook had for Jimin. The latter couldn't believe his ears. Did he hear right?

Jimin expected Jungkook to beat him up. To scream and yell endlessly at him but all those were replaced by care, concern and love. How?

"I-I did. W-We'll talk l-later." Jimin muttered and attempted to walk away but was held back by Jungkook who gently held his wrist. Jimin teared up making soft sobbing sounds breaking Jungkook more than he was already broken.

"I-I'm sorry... I really am sorry." Junhkook couldn't hold his tears back anymore and started to cry together with Jimin. Jungkook backhugged Jimin and silently cried on the shorter's shoulders while the younger was crying his heart out loud. He couldn't hold back anymore. Jimin, with all his force pushed Jungkook backwards making him stumble back and stared at him shocked. This was the first time Jimin made an outburst.

'This is to bring you on the right track Kookie.' Jimin thought to himself and glared at Jungkook with anger-filled eyes.

"Sorry?! You're sorry?!" Jimin shouted glaring at Jungkook who had his head hung low of embarassment. Jimin laughed bitterly.

"Jungkook, sorry ain't going to bring back my purity. My virginity. W-What kind of man are you huh?!" Jimin despite being short started to throw weak punches on Jungkook's muscled chest. Of course it didn't hurt the stronger but the pain went directly into his throbbing heart.

"I-I just hate you!! How could you do this?!! I-I know we don't have any friendly relationship but you should've at least respected me!!" Jimin shouted in Jungkook's face as the latter was already in tears. He felt extremely guilty to what he did. He just needed one chance to fix eveything. He would start afresh with Jimin. Shower with love, kisses and cuddles. All he needed was one chance.

"Please Jungkook. For God sake, just-just leave..." Jimin muttered and collapsed on the floor crying bitterly. Jungkook heart broke completely and sank onto the floor next to Jimin snd back-hugged.

"P-Please J-Jimin-ah. I'm really really sorry. I-I was drunk and c-confused. I didn't mean to hurt you a-and-"

"-rape me!" Jimin cut Jungkook's words by shouting and pushing Jungkook harsly. "S-Stop it... I-I'm tired." Jimin whispered as he got up and went away leaving Jungkook to cry by himself.

'I really hope this makes you realise your mistake Kookie.'

Author's NOTE

Ok this chapter was short and I'm really sorry 'bout dat. Since you guys were practically begging me to update, there ya go.

Ilysm💖💖