My Savior

-7-

I'm pregnant... with Rick's baby... I can't tell him. I didn't want anything bad to happen to the baby, but I didn't want the baby to grow up without a father either.

What am I going to do?

Ryder popped into my thoughts. I can't tell him. He'll think I'm a slut... even though it was rape... But I didn't want him to know that. I didn't want anyone to know what Rick had done, but how am I supposed to explain a baby?

I was terrified. My baby wouldn't have a father. Ryder will judge me and I'll lose him.

What will my parents think?

What will they do when they find out what Rick did?

What if Rick finds out?

I broke down into a sobbing mess. I called the only person who wouldn't judge me.

"Hey, Sage. Are you crying?!"

"C-can you p-please c-come over?" I whimpered, trying my best not to hyperventilate.

"Of course, hon."

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Lydia came barging into my room. I was still crying even though it's been roughly ten minutes. She wrapped her arms around me. "What's up, hon?"

I pointed to the bathroom and she saw the pregnancy tests. "Whose is it?"

"Rick's..." Speaking his name pained me.

She held me tighter. When I eventually calmed down, I told her what Rick did, how Ryder and I have been hanging out, how he likes me and I like him, but he doesn't know that, and how I'm terrified to tell him.

"I don't think he'll judge you," she said reassuringly. I highly doubted that. "I think you should tell him when you're ready. If he judges you, then he's an asshole."

"I'm so scared. I don't know if I'm ready to be a mom..." I admitted. I sniffled and wiped any stray tears.

"I think you'll be a good mom even though you're still young. I'll be there for you to help if you need it," she said with a smile. I smiled back. Lydia is good at making me feel better. "When are you going to tell your parents?"

I sighed, "Soon." My phone buzzes. I got a text from Ryder.

Ryder 😊: Hey princess
Ryder 😊: I won't be able to see you tomorrow

Me: That's fine

Ryder 😊: How are you doing?

Me: I'm ok
Me: Lydia is at my house. I gtg

Ryder 😊: Ok princess

"Was that Ryder?" I nod. "Would you like to go to the mall tomorrow?"

"Sure." It wasn't like I had anything better to do. Besides, Lydia and I barely hang out but she's practically my best friend.

Lydia had to leave because she needed to go watch her little sister. I lay down on my bed thinking of a way to tell my parents.

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I wake up to a knock on my bedroom door. "Come in."

The door opens, revealing Lydia. "Hey, hon. I see you're still in bed. I'll wait for you downstairs." She shuts the door and I manage to get out of bed. I stretch and rub the sleep from my eyes. I take a quick shower and put on leggings and a Melanie Martinez crop top.