"8:26 pm"
i lay in bed with you on my mind
thoughts clouding my head and tears in my eyes
i refuse to let them fall,
i won't give in.
i miss you
and all our late talks
now you're talking with her,
and i feel so stuck.
i want you
but we're no good for one another
i've caused you pain
but my love you've destroyed me.
i can't clear my head of you
nor my heart
the pain started small
and now it's tearing me apart.
i think i'm just torturing myself
imagining scenarios in my head
knowing damn-well they'll never happen,
because the "you and i" are dead.
i feel like i'm nothing
because you have gone
i feel so numb,
fucking hell why can't i move on?
you told me tonight that you missed me
and that made me smile
but then you mentioned another girl
and my heart raced a mile.
you told me you fell asleep with her
just you two alone in bed
and i know it shouldn't
but that fucked up my head.
i miss you
so much i do
but you're not mine
and that's all my fault...
***
"8:33 pm"
i've let the tears fall
and the whimpers leave my lips
i'm going insane
i can't... i c a n ' t do t h i s
