Im still not moving on. Im still thinking about him. My head my body doesn't get the message even it already past 3 years. Im still waiting for him. Waiting for him to come back. I still cant let him go. No one can have him. He's mine.
I click his name on my phone and rereading the text I was sending to him.
I let small chuckle; how sadly,how pityful I am chasing over a man that even dont want me anymore. This is not first time I broke his heart. Everytime i make mistake he always forgive me.
But I think this time im totally screw up.
Im always put my friends first than anything, he always felt like a third wheel btween me and my friends.
Its not like im using him. I love him.
But im so enjoying rocking my teenage life.
I always keep him waiting, always keep him worrying.
I lose count how many time we argue about my behaviour, I became cold.
He said I need to stop hanging out w friends till morning and make my parents worry. But who cares; Its not like we're partying or drunk-ing.
We just having fun, meeting new friend here and there, gossiping.
Its normal things teenage girl like me do.
~Him~
I always love how over protective he is.
He always have a reason for it. "TRUE".
I love how he always called me everytime im out w my girl. " INDEED".
It's kind creepy sometimes when he always found the place I've been hanging w my friends. He always appear from no where wthout telling me.
Yah tht cute for a moments.
But not cute anymore when me and my friends find tht its so... disturbing.
~♡~
Pleasee B, pleseeeee.. listen to me...
Its was a mistake... i cant losing you ...
Please pleaseee give me one more timeee .
I would not ruin it these timeee.
Pleaseee B... dont leave me . Dont let me go...
I cant live without you .
Please forgive me....
Im pleading... crying my heart out.
Im hugging him tight, grabbing his shirt . Until its tores. Its enough to tell how desperate i am. Wanting his forgiveness . I cant losing him . Not now. Never.
He try to lose my grip, he try to push me aside. Im still crying and pleading like crazy yet he stil dont care. He dont care my tears anymore. He so done w me.
I can see his eyes full w pain . I can feel he totally make its real this time. He totally leave me . Still I dont buy it. I always get what I want. Especially him .
Enough .. I so enough w you .
Just please. . Go home . We done .
Im so done with you.
I always give you a chance but you always ruin it with your stubbornness.
You lose my respect and you just lose me...
Please go home, go home lisa...
Im still crying. Im wouldn't let him escape from my grip.
I keep crying and ask him forgiveness.
He keep trying to escape from my hold,
How can I fight a man. He obviously much stronger then me. But in this situation I cant losing.
This only one my opportunity to get him back.
This would be last time I've seen him.
I can't lose my chance.
I keep holding him,crying, tighten my grip, I would not let him slipped away until he get back with me . Never...
Then I felt he stop pushing me,
He start to hold me and hugging me back softly, enough to make me calm...
He suddenly kiss my head , my forehead
Enough for now babyyy.
Go home.
Dont find me anymore.
I still love you but enough for now.
I will find you by my own but; its just not now.
Just that he left me.
He running towards his car and left me .
He left me broken and unforgiveable.
I cant feel my legs anymore.
I lose my strengths.
I lose him .
I lose my everything ...
I lose my ... Teddy ~
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Fanfiction( YUGYEOMXLISA ) Got7&BLACKPINK He said he will come back for me he said he will looking for me by his own. did he really will come back ? or he's just lying? am I put too much of hoping on him? I let a deep sigh and looking at the sky. It's have...
