Is It Love? DROGO

Chapter 30: In his arms is where she wanna be

Red Crandall

I go looking for the man of my life, whom I haven't seen at all day. Firstly, I go to my room to take a quick shower and get changed, then I go to Drogo's. I'm surprised to find it empty. I stay disconcerted for a few minutes, then decide to wait for him. He shouldn't be too long.

I look around his things smiling tenderly as my eyes fall on some of his personal belongings that especially represent him. An abandoned T-shirt at the foot of his bed, a poster on the wall, a book on his dresser, which he talked to me about several times.

I pass in front of the window... and freeze. I just saw something... I squint to better see outside. There's a light in the outhouse's windows. I smile. I rush out of Drogo's room and pelt down the stairs. I meet Nicolae who's carrying some books.

"Where are you going?"

"I'm going to join Drogo in the outhouse."

Nicolae tenses slightly but gives me a sign of the chin.

"Be here for dinner."

The way there seems shorter than usual. The eagerness to see him has given me wings. I've missed him so much!

As I enter the outhouse, I already feel the urge to jump into his arms. I need his presence, feel his warmth.

"Drogo!"

No answer. Anxiety slowly seeps through me. These days I come to worry about everything and nothing. I find him sitting at the foot of the bed.

"Drogo, are you okay?"

He lets out a sarcastic laugh that chills my heart.

"Fine, I'm great!"

"Did something happen while I was away? Do you want to talk about it?"

"Oh, nothing new... The woman I love dreams of me killing her, then suddenly disappears! The usual..."

"Stop it! Don't go there!"

"Don't go where? Don't think? Don't look for an answer?"

"Don't use the first obstacle that comes along just to justify getting away from me!"

"Hang on a minute, you're kidding right? What do you need to understand?"

"I fully understand that our story is becoming more complicated than you had imagined, and now you're backing away!"

"I'm... What?! I'm trying to protect you!"

"Is there anyone in this town who is as interested in what I feel than in their desire to play the bodyguard?"

Being the damsel in distress is beginning to get on my nerves!

"Yeah, it must be horrible seeing all these people dead worried about you!"

I find in him the cynicism of the early days. The one which annoyed me deeply. His fleeing look and his distant attitude don't look good. We've been through this before. No way am I gonna make the same mistakes again!

I approach him and play in the fact that he is irretrievably and hopelessly in love with me. I slide between his legs and straddle him, hugging his neck. Now that I am close to him, I feel his breath accelerating. His pupils dilate. The way he has of staring at my mouth leaves no doubt about the thoughts that inhabit him right now. He is hungry for me as much as I am hungry for him.

"You should go."

"I'm fine where I am."

"I'm serious Red, I too have a bad feeling about this. I feel that something is riding in me. Something dark and irrepressible."