Cigarettes and Sass (reupload)

Chapter 5

Gerard gazed out his studio window with a dreamy expression on his face. His cell phone was in his hand, resting against the desktop though Gerard was focussing so little on it, it was in danger of sliding from his fingertips and falling to the floor. Gerard had been planning to text Frank, but two hours later he was still clueless to what he should say.

He wanted to let him know how much fun he'd had over the weekend... he wanted to thank him properly and maybe meet up again, preferably soon. But Gerard couldn't think of any way of putting it without sounding creepy or clingy. After all, he had only met Frank for a few minutes on the Saturday and even though they spent the whole of Sunday together, that was still only one day... They weren't even at 'friends' status yet, let alone anything else.

Gerard knew that the only person who would be capable of telling him how to play things cool and yet score a second date would be Brian. But thanks to Gerard's stupidity asking Brian was completely out of the question unless Gerard wanted to ruthlessly hurt him. He knew that if a guy he liked had agreed to go on a date with him and even pretended to be thrilled about it, then made it clear he liked someone else, he would just be left heartbroken... He knew he needed to find a way to let Brian down gently but he hadn't figured it out yet, and he really didn't want to hurt him.

Gerard sighed and turned away from the window to rest his forehead against the top of his desk, closing his eyes as he groaned. It was already the middle of the week and he still hadn't managed to text Frank, and his date with Brian was looming closer and closer. He hadn't emailed Mikey back yet, he hadn't heard back from the board as to whether The Breakfast Monkey was go or not, and he had been completely slacking on all of his work in favour of stalking pictures of Frank on the internet and trying to come to terms with the fact that he had met him. Hell, kissed him. Gerard felt as if his world had just been flipped upside down and he wasn't sure if it was a bad thing or not.

Gerard sighed and looked at his phone, trying to summon up the courage to text Frank but whenever he opened up a new message he found himself growing panicky at the thought of even trying to write the text and he would give up.

Frank was a famous porn star, he could have anyone. Why would he want Gerard?

Gerard groaned and put his phone down again, almost having a heart attack when it suddenly started vibrating against the desk, the vibrations going through the wood and amplifying the noise. Gerard snatched his phone back up, his heart racing in horror before lurching at the thought that maybe Frank had somehow got his number and was calling him.

Of course, Gerard could never be so lucky.

"Hi Mikes." Gerard sighed as he answered the call, wincing when Mikey's sarcastic voice drawled into his ear.

"Oh so you are alive then. Not like I've been worried or anything about the fact you haven't been replying to my emails or texting me back for the past two weeks."

"Yeah, sorry about that Mikes I meant to –"

"Oh don't worry about it. I've only been worried sick. I've been missing lectures, getting behind on assignments, I haven't even touched my bass for a week. I thought you, my very own brother, had actually died, or been abducted or something. But it's not important, I'm sure you were must've just been really busy right?" Mikey scoffed, Gerard smirking to himself and rolling his eyes fondly.

"Oh come on Mikes, you were that worried about me and you waited until now to call?" He chuckled, an amused look of scepticism on his face as he heard Mikey bite back his own laughter.

"I was worried about you when you didn't reply to email as quick as you usually do... but I spoke to Grandma and heard you're like, chasing some boy or whatever so I knew you were fine." Gerard groaned and rolled his eyes, Mikey's laughter filtering into his ear. "I thought I'd leave it a while to make sure I didn't call at a crucial moment," Mikey's voice was full of amusement as Gerard scowled. "I figured now would be okay though since you're at work, and I had a gap between lectures so I figured I'd kill some time."