Hands shakes
Body shakes
Ground shakes
Everything crashes down,
Again.
Repeated cycle of here and now
Repeated cycle of lost then found
Up then down
In then out
My world seems to be falling down all around
I build it up
To tear it down
Every dream and ambition hit the ground.
Lost,
Not willing to be found
I am bound to this mess
So many regrets.
Please let me forget
All the memories
My life's in jeopardy
Please let me know the remedies
To forgive
Myself for what I've done
My body has begun
To decay
I'm afraid that my mind left to hideaway
A long time ago
When I was meant to grow.
My innocence, I had to let go.
Stripped,
More than just figuratively
Quite literally
Almost instantly,
My world came crashing down.
Just like an earthquake.
I can't shake
This feeling of my body not belonging to me
With longing,
I hope one day I'm free.
I'm still not quite sure what that means.
I want to hide
And say goodbye
But actually I want to run
Far away, from this dreaded place.
By place, I mean my mind
Suffocating my happiness
And making me want to die from time to time.
I feel so empty
But so full.
It doesn't really make much sense
Overwhelmed with insecurities and uncertainty.
*this will probably never be finished as I try and write until I feel better and I don't go back often to past works and try and add on because most of them are to do with feelings in the moment and thoughts expressed at a particular time.*
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Every Flower Blooms In Its Own Time: A Collection of Poems By Elliesintellect
PoetryPoems about life and love and trauma and mental health and my experiences. This is going to be a growing collection of poems and short stories mostly about my life and the childhood trauma I experienced. It will include graphic imagery at times and...
