Do I Mean 'Nothing' To You? (A chandler riggs fanfic)

Chapter 14 ~Suicide~

Alex POV

I got home and ran up stairs, I had no emotions. My mind was blank. I wasn't thinking. I didn't want to think. I took out the blade and sleeping pills and gently laid them on my dresser. I looked at the mirror to see myself.

"I'm such a wreck.."
I murmured in the silence.

I walked over to my curtains and closed them. It was now dark in my room, but with little streams of light peeking through the curtains.

I took out a pen and paper and started to write down my note,

Note:
I'm sorry.. I'm sorry I never told you the shit that was going on in my life. I'm sorry for all my mistakes I did. I'm sorry for being here. I'm sorry for everything. So much has happened. I never realized how much of a wreck I am. I know I'm a problem.. Everyone hated me. No one loved me. I'm just a lonely girl.. No one will notice I'm gone..
-Alexander Miller

A tear rolled down my cheek and onto the paper.

I took a glance at the sleeping pills.

'No..'

I grabbed them and dumped them out in the toilet and flushed.

I headed over to my closet and got out my jump rope and tied one end to the hook on my ceiling and tied the other end big with a big enough hole for my head to fit through.

I took a mini stool and stood on it and put my head through the rope.

"With one jump.. Poof.."

So I jumped. The stool fell over and I couldn't breathe. I clenched the note in my hand as the world began to black out.

Poof

Chandlers POV

I was at running to Alex's house.
I arrived at her door within minutes, I banged on her door, but the door was unlocked. I ran inside up to her room and yanked the door open.

My eyes watered,

What I saw, was horrible..

Alex was hanging from the ceiling, softly swaying back in forth in front of my eyes.

"A-Alex.."