(2moons Fanfiction) FORTHBEAM || THE PRICE OF ME

CHAPTER 15

“I loved you, Beam.”

I shake my head to erase the things that happened in the library.

“now, talk.”

Forth just stared at me and didn’t say anything.

“okay. You are wasting my time here, I still have qui-“

“I loved you, Beam”

I feel like I’ve been deaf for a second. My blood boiled in anger in an instant.

“Don’t you-“

“I truly love you Beam.”

“I am sorry.”

“I know I am just nuisance to you now. But I don’t care.”

I am stunned. The fuck Is he saying?? I gulped. No… Be strong Beam. You are so done with his game already.

“How dare you Forth. I already told you from the very start, right?? Everything is already fine with me. You don’t have to bother yourself anymore. But you still have to go to this extent?? I am so done, through with this. Please just let me have some peace.”

“What the fuck is wrong with you really Forth?? You think this is funny?? No, it is not funny at all. Please… Spare me from your games na. I am not in the mood to play with you and I will never.”

I grabbed my bag. “I will pretend that I didn’t hear anything.”

Just I was about to stand up, he speak again. ”You were my best friend Beam. You were the most important person to me aside from my family Beam, you know that. That’s how I valued what we have between us before. And I admit, I took it for granted.”

“I took it for granted to the point that I never considered the fact of you leaving me. I know how terrible and bad my attitude that time. How reckless I am, how impulsive but despite all of that you were always there for me. You were always there to save my ass from all the trouble I caused. I was so used of it. I always told myself that no matter what I would do, you were there to fetch me. I remember you always said that you are sick of me or hated me but I just laughed it all off because I know you never meant it. I never knew why I was that so comfortable with you, and I neglected it. ” He smiled weakly. “So I became careless.” He continued.

I just let him talked and he just keep on looking me at the eyes.

He gulped and I could see his eyes turning red. He continued. “When… that day… when I woke up and I saw you, both of us, naked. I know I messed it up. So bad.”

Here it is. I closed my eyes so tight… Shit.. am I ready for this?? I want to stop him, to get out of here but my body didn’t want to listen. Because maybe somewhere deep down.. I want to hear what he wants to say. I just don’t know if I am already prepared for it.

“when you confessed in front of me, the memories when you confessed that night, the confusion, the shock, the mixed feelings, all burst out. I was so careless and stupid that I say all those things to you. with the thought of you always been there, that time, was all mixed up and messed up.”

A tear dropped on my cheek. His tears flowed out too while continued talking and looking at me at the same time. I gripped the table cloth so hard.

“When I sobered up, I knew I became impulsive that I said things that was so out of line. Everything seems so wrong. I was too ashamed to face you. I didn’t even have a courage to say my apologies because of it. I just continued thinking that time that you won’t left me.. you would still be there, waiting and coming for me. Like you had always do. But you didn’t. there I realized that I was not the one who must wait for you to come to me, but it should be you.”