Lacuna [The Fangirl Series no. 02]

Six

SIX PETTY ARGUMENTS IN A SPAN OF TWO YEARS

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Lee Jihoon's Point of view

I'm dreaming.

And it's the same dream.

"Jihoon-hyung, you could've saved me! Hyung, why didn't you saved me?" A car wreckage is in front of me and Mingyu was reaching out. His lower body was trapped inside of it and I tried to move. I really tried but, it feels like I'm stuck in my place. Blood trickled from the palm of my hands toward the concrete road. Mingyu kept on wailing and shouting in the background as my blood began to contort and a woman formed.

"He's right, you know. You could've saved him but you let your emotions get the best of you," Her voice was merely a whisper but it echoed around us. A fire blasted from nowhere as the ground started to open up. A big rosebud-like structure came out, crawling and stopped growing when it reached me. What is this, thing? It has a big placard sign of I love Kwon Soonyoung.

Instead of thorns, the stem was wrapped in the very same scarf Asia gave me. It's tattered appearance gave me the chills as a faint heartbeat made the bud light up, rhythmically as it got louder and louder. Louder and louder it resonated in my ears. A light sprang forth and I raised my hand to my eyes to stop it.

It bursted. Blood flooded the place along with blurry pictures, bullets, shards of glass and pencils.

The rosebud opened and in the center, Seungkwan was shivering. I knew it was him because of his blond hair. I was about to approach him when he slowly turned his head towards me, morphing into a very familiar female. Seungkwan's brown irises turned black and his face became smaller. Asia was soaked in blood and her sunkissed skin became paler. I willed my body to move closer to take a good look at her. Her eyes were sore and she lifted her hand. "Boss, you need to wake up!" was the only thing she said but it felt like she pushed me away, the impact had me being hurled to nothingness.

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"Boss, you have an appointment with Idol Room and I would love it if you wake up right now, as in, right at this moment. Because, I swear, I'll-" Her soft voice is a stark contrast against the threat she left hanging in the air as my body felt like it's been dipped by cold water. My hand shot towards her and grabbed her small ones in mine. The warmth of her skin made me sigh in relief but, I realised the situation I'm in. I pulled the blanket up to my chin and stared at her. The color of oblivion seemed to pull me in. Her eyes never failed to mesmerise me. And now it seems amused and a bit puzzled by my behavior. Even though Asia's irises were completely black, I can always see her emotions.

The effects of having Asialaine as your assistant: A guide by Lee Jihoon.

"You're real, right?" I asked and she tilted her head to the side. Probably mystified by my behavior. "Boss, are you okay? You look pale," Her hand reaching out to check my temperature when I started shooing her away. I stood up and went to the bathroom. "What's my schedule for today?" The dream slowly faded away as I reached for the shower head's knob.

The hot water steamed up the mirror and I stared at my reflection. My hair looked dry and coarse because of the coloring it went through but, who cares? As long as the CARATs are happy then, I'm happy too. Soon after that, the sound of Asia's voice occupied the room. She's singing the song Seungkwan used a lot of times and when I ask her why she always sings that song she would just shrug and walk away.

Should I eat or not? Debating if I should eat a heavy meal or not, I smacked my lips together. "Boss? I ordered chicken and stir fried rice!" A smile made its way in my lips and I winked at myself. There's your decision, Jihoon.