Grim Reaper Ascended

Ch. 3 - Ascended

I could sense that there were many people, many people looking at me, many people staring at me, many people, so many people. Go away, I don't want this attention, leave me alone, let me be alone. Emotions started to flood my body, drowning me. I couldn't breathe I couldn't comprehend what was happing me. Leave me alone! I want to be alone! Stop staring at me! 

They were still there they weren't leaving and I was getting frantic they weren't leaving and I couldn't control my emotions. They weren't leaving, I wanted them to leave me alone, I don't like this, I don't like this. I could sense them, I could sense that I was dead, I could sense that there was no one here, no one, but so many.

There was nothing but conscience, nothing but awareness. No sound, no sight, no touch, no smell, just me and my conscience and those people, those many people and yet there was no one. No one that cared, no one that wept, no one was there for me.

"Come, my child, open your eyes. You are safe now, you are free." No, no I wasn't I'm bound by my emotions, I had no release, I couldn't sense the freedom.

"There is no need to fight, just open your eyes. All will be better." No, no it won't, can't you see? You try to hard, it only hurts in the end, leave me be. I was drowning, I couldn't breathe through my emotions as they squeezed my existence, my very soul. I'm drowning, I'm drowning.

"Open our eyes, you can do it, child."  I was struggling, I had no eyes, they were simply not there. I had nothing but the conscience I was born with and my rampaging emotions that had broke from my cell, the same emotions I had locked away. 

"I will open your eyes for you then." The voice was lower, it was hidden, hiding. I felt a disturbance in my being, you're not allowed, go away. They were ripping through me, ripping me apart, go away, you can't come here, this is mine, you can't have it! I pulled away from the ripping, hiding in the deepest part I could find, away from that, that, voice, away from that unwelcome feeling.

I was being ripped apart, my pain was mixing with my emotions, I was losing myself, yet I hid, yet I locked myself in the part they couldn't reach, the only part they couldn't tare from me. Light flooded into my sight as I locked myself into myself as the rest of my body was transformed and manipulated. My mind, it's mine, you can't take it from me, be gone! 

A surge of power shot through me as my body came alive and fought the manipulation, the transformation, I was too weak, but I still fought as a world materialized in my eyes. Voices, I heard voices hushed and rapid. I fought, no, you can't take me away, you can't have me, it will only hurt in the end, you can't, you can't.

I fought and fought as the world took shape, I heard gasps, I heard cooeing, I heard noise, I could hear. I saw trees, I saw gold, I saw marble, I saw paintings, I saw feathers, I saw scales I saw colors they were beautiful, but they don't own me, I am myself. Then I felt the ground, I felt the air, I felt the warmth, I felt the cold and I reached for them, examining each one, taking each one for myself. 

My senses sprang to life, and I shot onto feet that were unable to touch the ground. I looked around at the many people staring at me, and one that was next to me clad in a yellow hood and robe his shoes were yellow and they all had white trim with yellow patterns that seemed to glow on their own.

"Welcome, my child. Welcome to the land of the Ascended."