(I dunno... enjoy this... uh .... this thing. Yeah. Cool..... alright bye)
"I want you to make me feel because I cant do it myself." The small boy whispered into Josh's ear. The boys name was Tyler, he was one of Josh's classmates in his advanced English study. The two were in college, josh older then tyler by a year.
Tyler had always been quiet but that never stopped Josh from trying to be friend. Josh doesnt remember how exactly it happened but Tyler was in his dorm room with him, sitting in his lap and kissing him worn half their clothes off.
"What do you mean?" Josh asked. "I- I cant do it myself.. I dont know how... I'm... I'm not even really here right now.... it sucks and I hate it. I wanna feel. I wanna be here. Bring me here." Tyler begged. "How do I do that?" Josh asked.
"Touch me." Tyler breathed. ".. okay.. why cant you feel?" Josh asked, he was confused. "I dont know." Tyler whispered. "..my therapist said it's called dissociation or something." He added.
Josh nodded slowly, trying to stay attentive to the conversation as he ran his fingers over Tyler's tan skin. "Dissociation... you're disengaged from your feelings." Josh said. Tyler nodded. "And I dont have that much empathy... a lot of the time I dont feel like I'm in my body... I wanna be in my body josh." He said.
"Are you not in your body right now?" Josh asked. "Kinda... I'm holding conversation... that's a bonus." Tyler replied. Josh hummed. "So touching you will make you feel?" Josh asked. "Sometimes... depends on who im with.. sometimes I dont even remember sleeping with someone.. I'll just wake up to some stranger in my bed.. other times I remember bits and pieces... never more then that thought." Tyler replied.
"You have a bad memory?" Josh asked. "I guess.. it's part of the dissociation... it's like I'm a robot most of the time... being controlled by someone else." Tyler said. Josh nodded.
"Well I wanna make you feel." He said. "Please." Tyler begged as Josh ran his fingertips up his sides. "Can I take off your underwear?" Josh asked. Tyler nodded letting josh lay him down and slip the fabric off.
He took the boys member into his hand and slowly stroked him. Tyler let out a soft breath, moaning softly when Josh swiped his thumb over his slit. Most of it was a blur. He doesnt remember when Josh had stopped jerking him off and grabbed the lube to prep him. He doesnt remember josh starting to prep him.
But suddenly hes back, moaning loudly and arching his back when Josh started messaging his fingers into Tyler's prostate. Hes gripping the sheets in his fists. It's good. He can feel it. "You back?" Josh chuckled. "Think I lost you for a bit there." He said.
Tyler moaned again. "Yeah, sorry." He said. "Oh my Godd." He moaned. It was good, so good. It was a lot, he was so sensitive but it was so good. Josh slowly pulled his fingers out and started opening a condom, Tyler doesnt know where it came from.
He whined however, he didn't want to stop feeling. Josh shushed him softly, setting his hand on Tyler's stomach to remind him to stay attentive. Once the condom was on he lined up and pushed in. He didnt waste any time, fucking Tyler hard and fast and Tyler was moaning.
The boy laughed suddenly, smiling through moans. "What?" Josh asked. "So good." Tyler breathed. He hadnt felt this alive in such a long time. He hadnt felt this much in such a long time.
Josh grinned and leaned down to kiss him, swallowing the moans Tyler let out. He moved to kiss at Tyler's neck, sucking hickies into the flesh and reaching down to jack Tyler off at the same time, making sure Tyler stayed here.
Tyler was moaning nonstop, blunt nails digging into Josh back as he clinged to the older boy. He came unexpectedly when Josh rammed into his prostate, practically screaming as white ribbons covered his stomach.
After Josh had finished and pulled out Tyler grinned sleepily, he was still buzzing, still feeling. It was good. Josh kissed him and he smiled more. "thank you." He whispered. "You're welcome." Josh replied. He kissed Tyler again before getting up and heading to the bathroom to get a warm cloth.
Tyler was asleep by the time he got back but he still cleaned him up before laying down with him. He Hope's Tyler remembers in the morning. He Hope's Tyler was here. He Hope's he felt.
When morning came Josh was up first. He groaned softly ad he stretched before looking at Tyler who was sleeping soundly beside him. The blankets had slipped down to the boys waist so Josh pulled it back up.
It took about another hour or so before Tyler woke and he wondered if he looked as numb as he felt. Josh looked at him and seen him just staring off into space so he gently nudged him with his elbow.
"Hey." He said softly. Tyler looked up at him. "You remember last night?" Josh asked curiously. Tyler kept staring. Josh sighed softly and turned onto his side before pulling Tyler closer. "Hm? You remember what happened?" He asked.
Tyler looked away, trying to find it in himself to think. He finally nodded, slowly, unsurely. Bits and pieces, tiny fragments from last night flashed in his mind, but he was missing something from it. A piece he didnt remember.
Josh smiled softly. "Okay that's good." He said even though Tyler was still expressionless. "Are you here right now?" Josh asked, cupping Tyler's jaw. Tyler just stared for a few moments before he answered. "K-inda." He replied. Josh nodded.
"Okay. So you remembered last night? You didnt look too sure." Josh said. "I remember when I came..... it was good. So good...... not much else though." Tyler replied. Josh nodded.
It was quiet for a moment. "I remember being happy.... for the first time in what felt like forever." Tyler whispered josh smiled soft. "I'm glad-." He said being cut off at the end by tylrr abruptly kissing him.
When Tyler pulled back he ran his hand down Josh's chest. "Thanks." He whispered. "You're welcome." Josh smiled as Tyler moved to lay his head on Josh's chest and yeah maybe josh asked Tyler out later that day, and Yeah Tylrr said yes.
