I just want to scream on the top of my lungs and I have no clue why. I'm tired of constantly trying - putting on a smile and overanalyzing every action I make and every word I say.
This anxiety is overwhelming and all encompassing, please just let me breathe. Let me feel okay to be by myself. Even though lately, I've been hating being by myself. This argument in my head has exhausted itself. I'm dwindling, slowly, I can feel it. Bit by bit, my energy is being sucked away and I don't feel like doing anything. But I have to. I live in a world where doing nothing is unacceptable.
I feel ridiculous making these comments - complaining about having a job, having a family who cares. I don't know why, but these things weigh me down.
I'm floating. Someone has dropped a heavy weighted bag on my chest, I can't breathe. I'm struggling to keep my head afloat, I know I have to keep my head afloat, I know. but I'm just so tired, I just can't.
