I'm Not Drunk, I'm Just Intoxicated By You <3

Chapter 19

*Sean's POV*

My mind was all fogged up. I could hear beeping and a mumble of conversation, but all the words slurred together. For the life of me, I couldn't remember where I was or what had happened. I slowly opened my eyes to find myself staring at a white ceiling, and then I realised. I was at the hospital. I turned my head round to the right, to see if anyone was there, but no-one was. I feel so loved. Note the sarcasm. My head hurt, and my right arm was all bandaged up, and I also felt a bit of pain in my ribs. A nurse walked into the room, looking bored, but when she saw I was awake she plastered a giant smile on her face.

"You're awake! How are you feeling?" she asked.

"I'm a bit sore, but can you please tell me what happened? I don't remember anything," I replied. On hearing that the smile dropped from her face.

"Do you remember your name?" she asked. I had to go through loads of simple questions like that, about my age, my birthday, my family but I knew all the answers. I was getting frustrated though, why couldn't they just tell me already!

"What seems to have happened is that the swelling of your brain from the accident has caused you to lose your memory from about 24 hours before hand, meaning that you can remember everything apart from what happened in that period of time. It is very common for head injuries and patients normally get their memory back after a couple of hours, so I wouldn't worry," the nurse said.

"Can you please just tell me what happened!" I screamed at her. She looked a bit taken aback, but soon composed herself.

"You were in a car accident, you crashed into a van," she answered me. Suddenly I panicked.

"Was there someone else in the car? Was Ella there? Is she okay? Oh please let her be okay!" I cried out. Maybe that's why she wasn't here, because she was hurt, or worse. I heard the beeping of my heart monitor increasing and I vaguely felt something being injected into my arm before I was once again succumbed into darkness.

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This time when I woke up, my Dad and Faye were sitting beside my bed.

"Sean, your awake!" Faye screamed as soon as she saw my eyes flutter open. She stood up like she was going away to hug me, but my Dad put a hand on her shoulder.

"He's hurt, remember, but it's nice to see you awake," he said. I knew that my Dad would tell me the truth, unlike the doctors and nurses here, so I just had to ask.

"Dad, where's Ella? Is she okay?"

"She's fine son. She wasn't in the car with you. She's just on her way here with Aiden," he answered. As soon as he said Aiden, I suddenly got a flash of a picture of him and Ella in his room. It was brief. Only a second. But I believe it was a flashback. Maybe I'm regaining my memory already.

The door suddenly burst open, and in came the two of them. Ella had tears flowing down her cheeks and she looked relieved to see that I was awake.

"What do you think you were doing? You didn't need to try and kill yourself, just because of me. I'm not worth it Sean, you should be out there living your life, not stuck in here after being in a car accident!" she shouted at me, before adding, "I'm so glad that you're okay."

I was trying to process what she was saying, my thoughts getting jumbled together in my head. I took a deep breath and looked up at her, away to ask her to explain exactly what she meant. Then I saw her and Aiden locked in an embrace, and it all came flooding back. The confession. The kiss. The run. The hurt. The pain. The picture. The guitar. The van. The crash. The scream.

Then I started to sob. It was just too much to bear. The first time was bad, but the second time is at least 10 times worse. I started screaming.

"How could you! I loved you Ella! I still love you! Why can't you see that?" before I was once again injected and taken away from consciousness into my dreams, where I re-lived the scene over and over again, and I couldn't escape the pain.

*Ella's POV*

To see Sean like that literally killed me inside. I guess I couldn't just expect him to sit back and take the break up, but I didn't think he'd do something like that. I may not love him as much as I love Aiden but I still cared for him. And it was my fault he was like that. It was my fault he nearly died. It was my fault he had to get 15 stitches in his head. It was fault he sprained his wrist and bruised his ribs. It was all my fault. It could have been worse though I guess. He could have died.

I realised that I had started sobbing again, sometime during my little bit of reflection. I looked over at Aiden,

"It's not your fault Ella. Do not blame yourself!" he told me. He knew me too well.

"But it was Aiden. It was. And he hates me! He'll never want to see me again!" I screamed at him.

"Please can you take her out of the room, we need to try and stabilise our patient," a doctor asked Aiden. Well, more like ordered.

Aiden grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the room. He dragged me down to the car and then drove us back to my house where I got straight into bed and cried myself to sleep.

*Sean's POV*

After 3 days, I was discharged from the hospital. My head had healed nicely, and my wrist and my ribs were on the mend. But it was the injury inside that still hurt. My broken heart.

I was lying on my bed, just staring up at the ceiling. Thinking. Thinking about everything but her, but somehow everything seemed to relate back to her. In the end I gave up trying to think of something else and just started to consider my future. I couldn't stay here, that's for sure. I wouldn't be able to survive watching them acting like a couple. Doing the things that we used to do. I could apply for a college somewhere, move away. But I wouldn't know what course to choose. I sighed, this wasn't going to be easy.

Giving up on that idea as well, I decided to go downstairs and see my family. Not my fake, pretend family, but my real family. Which consisted of my Dad and Faye. They were the only two I could trust now, but even with them I wasn't a hundred percent sure that they wouldn't just up and leave one day. They were watching some sort of soap on TV, but to be honest I wasn't really paying attention. Until an advert came on, and I knew exactly what I was going to do with my life.

A/N: I know its short but just wanted to get something up before I go back to school. What does everyone think Sean's going to do?  (Caitlin and Shauna dont say cause I know you know :P) xx Updates will probably only be once every one or two weeks now since I will be soooo busy, but please dont give up on this story, and remember I will update whenever I can! xx thank you so much for reading and as always please vote/comment/fan/share if you are enjoying it :) Xx