"FOR YOU I WILL"

Chapter 55 - "Goodbye"

JOJO's POV

Hindi ko alam kung anong pumasok sa isip ko nung oras na yon,ang alam ko lang masyado na akong nasasaktan sa mga nangyayari.

But one thing that caught my attention and confused me alot is nung sabihin ni AshNi na lahat ng ginagawa nya ay para sakin.

In what way? Bakit? Paano? What does she means?

So iniiwasan nya ako dahil yun ang tama?

Itinataboy nya ako dahil yun ang dapat?

Or i really need to accept the fact na hindi nya talaga ako mahal.

I logged on MSN account and bingo saktong online si Mylene and Vince.

Magtatype pa lang sana ako ng may magpop-up ng message from Vince.

@itsmegwapongVince -- hoy Jojo anyari na sayo, papasok ka pa ba o papasok ka pa?  wala ka na atang balak umattend ng class dahil pasan pasan mo na ang mundo?

@akosiJojoTan --   loko! papasok pa ako pero hindi muna ngayon. Itutuloy ko na muna yung plano kong magbakasyon.

@itsmeGwapongvince -- iba na talaga pag anak ng may-ari noh? pabakasyon bakasyon na lang.

@akosiJojoTan -- that's why I'm lucky..

@itsmeGwapongvince -- Did Ashley know about that?

@akosiJojoTan -- NO.! I mean she didn't. Hindi na naman niya kailangang malaman diba? In fact, she wants me to leave and leave her alone so if yun ang gusto nya gagawin ko na lang.

@itsmeGwapongvince -- nakakasira talaga ng buhay yang pag-ibig na yan.

* Mylene join the conference*

@prettymiLine -- mybabes I miss you na.

@itsmeGwapongvince -- para sakin ba yun babes?

@prettymiLine -- just iwww Vince. just IWWW. I'm not referring to you I'm referring to Jojo okay. Ikaw naman  @akosiJojoTan ano ng plano mo at hindi na nag-aappear yang pagmumukha mo miski anino mo sa EGU. Akala ko nilamon ka na ng kalupaan.

@itsmeGwapongvince -- I'm just kidding Mylene but come to think of it maganda ka naman, sexy at mayaman total package kumbaga.In fact,nakajackpot na sana ako pero anak ng tokwa mas siga ka pa sakin eh.

@prettymiLine -- Ang sama mo Vince! I hate you.That's my way of showing the real me kaya mind your own business..

@itsmeGwapongvince -- HAHA.. Biro lang babes cute mo lang pag nagagalit.

@prettymiLime -- MAGTAGO KA NA SA SAYA NG NANAY MO KUNG AYAW MONG MAWALA NG MAAGA SA MUNDONG ITO.

@itsmeGwapongvince -- owwww I'm scared.. :-)

Heto na naman sila. tsk tsk bakit ganyan sila noh? Ako yung palaging kinakausap at hinahanap pero palagi naman nila akong binabalewala.

Buhay nga naman parang life!

Just deal with it Jojo.

@prettymiLine -- HOY JOJO ano ng plano mo?

@akosiJojoTan --  Wala. For now bakasyon lang muna,  I think I need some fresh air masyado na kasing polluted ang bansang Pilipinas para sakin.Pasalubungan ko na lang kayo. Okay. Sige na pag-usapan nyo ng dalawa ang dapat nyong pag-usapan dapat pagbalik ko may ViLene Couple na.Arasso.. bye guys.See you soon

I turned off my computer at nahiga na lang sa kama ko.

*sighs*

" Kunin nyo na lang ako please...

*knock knock*

Panira ng momentum tsk..

" bukas yan..

Nakita ko namang pumasok si Yaya..

" Sir Jojo nandiyan na po sina Ma'am at Sir.

" pakisabi na lang po na pababa na ako.

Nagpalit lang ako ng tshirt at bumaba na ako para puntahan sila.

" Oh my Gosh hijo what happened to you.?

" Why Mom.. annyeong Dad so how's the meeting in Korea?

" well done son but we're too tired so I'll talk to you later and I need to get some sleep.

" okay Dad..

And then Mom immediately grab my arms.

" Mom what now?

" just tell me what happened. All the details.. Look Jojo, you look like a zombie with a big and dark eyebags. Your instructors told me that you didn't attend your classes for three consecutive days.And also, Kenneth called me last night that you went to his house and drunk. What's wrong with you Son. And..... one more thing what about the e-mail you sent to me earlier huh?

Tahimik lang ako habang sinasabi ni Mama lahat ng yon. Tsk tsk.. hirap sa balita eh ang bilis kumalat sa kalawakan.

" Umma I'm very sorry for that. about my classes, I really don't want to attend  that's it.I was drunk because I went to a party. Regarding the e-mail I sent to you.. I just want to go to Korea for at least one to two weeks vacation.

Nakatingin lang sakin si Umma. Hindi ko alam kung alam nya ang reason ko pero buo na ang desisyon ko, kailangan ko muna sigurong maglipas oras sa ibang bagay.

" Is there something wrong hijo?

" Mom masakit palang masaktan, yung feeling na kahit gaano mo ipaglaban yung pagmamahal mo useless lang, yung kahit gaano mo gawin ang lahat para sa taong mahal mo hindi pa rin sapat.

" Jojo hijo, when it comes to Love it is normal to get hurt, to feel the pain. Kasi hindi mo masasabing nagmamahal ka kung hindi ka nasasaktan. Sa love naman hindi kailangan na win-win situation ka,because sometimes you need to play hard for you to know if the feelings are real. It is like fetching water from a well and trying to fill a jug with a hole. I mean... I didn't say it would be easy but I said  it would be all worth it. Ang dami mo nang efforts and sacrifices na ginawa for Ashley itatapon mo na lang ba ng ganun kadali?

Napaisip ako sa sinabi ni Mama. Totoo naman diba? Pag nagmahal ka hindi lahat nakukuha mo, hindi lahat napapagtagumpayan mo. At first, mahihirapan ka, magdurusa ka, masasaktan ka pero time will come na magiging worth it lahat ng pinaghirapan mo.

Pero kaya ko nga bang iwan at takasan na lang lahat dahil lang sa nasasaktan ako?

Masyado ng kumplikado ang mga nangyayari kaya sa ngayon, kailangan ko munang hanapin ang mga bagay na karapat dapat para sakin.

" Are you sure you want to leave tomorrow?

" If you allow me to leave I will Mom. Ako na lang muna ang bahala sa business natin sa Korea para hindi naman masayang yung pagpunta ko don. I will make myself busy as  much as I can para makalimutan ko munang nasasaktan ako.

Mom smiled at me.

" If  that's what you really want okay pumapayag na ako, but promised me that you'll call me when you arrived okay.

Lumapit ako kay Mama at saka ko siya niyakap. How can I disrespect this woman if she always thinks about me.

" Thank you Mom..

" You're always welcome son as long as you will be happy I'll support you and I will always be by your side. I'll call my secretary later para makapagpabook ka na ng flight for Korea tomorrow morning.

" Kamsahamnida Umma.

" Just take care of yourself okay. Sige na I'll take a rest cause I'm really tired,I have my jetlag pa so Goodnight na baby.

Goodbye for now Ashley.

Goodbye..