Two-Faced || Cesar Diaz

Chapter Eight

R O S A L I N A

"So, I saw you're brother leave. He seemed mad, whys that?" Cesar asks me.

"None of your business," I say watching the tv. He sits up and turns to face me.

"Just trying to make a conversation. I suppose we could talk about something else. How about us?" he smirks. He is very weird.

"Cesar, there isn't an us," I say looking at him.

"What do you mean?" he asks.

"There was only sexual feelings between us, Cesar. Well I had actual feelings but you ruined that," I say.

"Who's to say I didn't have feelings?"

"Well, did you?"

"Why else would I see a girl if I didn't have feelings for her? That's a little messed up," he frowns.

"Well, that's nice to know I guess." He really did have feelings for me?

"Rosalina, you know there still could be an us?" he suggests. That's the most absurd thing I've ever heard. Especially coming from him.

I laugh, "Cesar, there could never and will never be an us. Firstly, you're an asshole. Hate to break it to you. Secondly, our brothers would never let us."

"Okay I know that I'm an asshole, but there's such thing as people changing. Also why would we let our brothers stop us? If they don't understand then who cares?" he says. He's really trying wow.

"You're real funny Cesar," I laugh.

"I'm not trying to be funny Rose," he frowns, "I'm being serious. I like you, I really do. I know I've been an asshole at school. But you don't understand how hard it is being Spooky's brother. There's this pedestal that I have to be on and it isn't always easy. If I don't keep up the reputation that I'm supposed to, I could get hurt and-" he stops.

"You don't understand how hard it is being Javier's sister, and what?" I ask intrigued.

He sighs, "Spooky knows that we've been seeing each other. Or well that we used to. He came up to me one day and said that if I didn't stop what we were doing, I'd have to move away and that you'd get hurt. I didn't want to move away because of my best friends, they're all I have aside from you. I also couldn't let you get hurt either, I'd never be able to live with myself. That's why I had to be a dick to you at school."

This is definitely news to me and it makes complete sense. I really only thought about myself and made him out to be the bad guy. I never thought about all the possibilities and reasons as to why Cesar would act that way towards me in public.

"Oh, wow, I'm sorry Cesar. I never took it into consideration that there might have been a reasoning," I say. This changes everything.

"You don't need to be sorry, it still wasn't right. I could've talked to him," he says.

"No you couldn't have. I really do forgive you Cesar," I lightly smile. It feels as if a slight weight has lifted off of my chest. I sit up and throw the covers off of me. I try to stand up but Cesar rushes over to me.

"You can't stand up yet, you might hurt yourself," he says lightly pushing me back down.

"I can't really hurt myself more than I already have," I laugh. I stop when he doesn't laugh.

"Sorry, dark humor," I say. He sits down next to me and I do something that I thought I would never do. I hug Cesar and he hugs me back.

"You have no idea how happy this makes me," Cesar says. I smile, a real one this time. I never thought that I'd be hugging Cesar Diaz after all that he's put me through. But after hearing his side to the story it's hard not to forgive him. I understand why he was mean and why he did what he did.

"Can we start over?" he asks pulling away. I think for a moment. I do want to start fresh with Cesar and see where everything goes.

"Yeah, we can start over," I smile. The widest grin spreads across his face. He looks like a little boy on Christmas morning which makes me laugh. He then starts to lean towards me but stops.

"Is it okay if I kiss you?" he whispers. My heart starts racing a hundred miles an hour. Never would have I thought Cesar would ever ask permission to kiss me, or anyone for that matter. He doesn't seem the type.

"Why not," I say. Butterflies swarm my stomach when our lips connect. This is the most passionate and meaningful kiss Cesar and I have ever shared. I can tell this relationship is going to be very different from before, more serious. I don't know if I'm happy or nervous for that. I guess we'll have to see.

We both pull away and smile. Deep down in my heart I feel a glimmer of hope. Maybe I can be happy again. We lay down on the bed and he holds me in his arms. For once I feel safe.

"You're one of a kind, Cesar Diaz," I say staring at the ceiling.

"As are you, Rosalina Topaz," he says. I smile and close my eyes. I eventually fall asleep.

***

I wake up and don't feel how I usually do when I wake up. I don't feel as sad and I actually don't want to stay in my bed today. Of course I have to stay home because the doctor doesn't think I should go back to school just yet. I got home yesterday and the doctor said I have to see a therapist three times a week.

I also need to take anti-depressants. Maybe that's why I don't feel like I usually do. Well they seem to be working so I guess that's good.

I haven't talked to Javier at all since I've been back home, mostly because he hasn't even been here. He only came back last night to sleep. When he came into the house he went into the kitchen and then straight into his room. Sure it hurts, but he needs to understand what he puts me through. I'm not going to utter a single word to him until he speaks first and apologizes. It isn't easy being his sister.

Aside from that, my mother had been drowning herself with work. Of course she was devastated when she found out. In regards to that, she's taking more and more shifts at work so she isn't at home. It feels like she's given up on us.

Enough of the sad stuff, Cesar invited me to hangout with him and the rest of his friends at Ruby's house. I guess Ruby's family's friend is in town for awhile so I get to meet her. Her names Olivia I guess. Who knows, maybe I can make a new friend.