Close As Strangers » a.i

05

- Ashton's point of view -

I walked into the living room part of the bus, to where the boys were watching TV, gaining unimpressed looks from them all.

"I can't believe you" Michael raised his voice at me

"Michael we talked about this last night, shut up, I'd rather not talk about it" I slumped down on to the sofa pulling out my phone and scrolled through Twitter.

"Well you're miserable about it, I don't see why, it's all your fault"

"It's Calums fault. not mine" 

"Why is it my fault?" Calum interrupted.

"You were the one telling me i'm a free man tonight, and the one who answered Tilly's call telling her i'm fine, you were the one bringing the girls on the bus!"

"Yeah for a few drinks? I didn't tell you to go fuck a girl did I?! We all know you used her to get back at Carrie but-"

"How do you even know about Carrie? You know nothing about what happened between us, it happened before I met you all"

"She told us whilst you and that Aliza girl was were screaming at the top of your lungs each others name, you should of just told Tilly the truth, it was a mistake and we all know that, you was angry, but telling her you was meeting fans, that she's disappointed in you, and saying that she wastes your time with you both being completely and we all know that all of them are lies"

"What am I going to say? Oh by the way Tilly I fucked some other girl hope you forgive me"

"You know I don't mean it like that Ashton" Calum walked off into the bunks annoyed, leaving Luke on his phone and Michael giving me still, an unimpressed look.

"We broke up anyway, there's nothing to talk about anymore, lets drop the subject" I sighed, slouching down and folding my arms.

I regret telling Tilly all of what I told her last night and it was all a huge mistake but with cheating on her, made me feel guilty and knowing there was no way I could ever look at her or talk to her without being disappointed or hating myself even more.

"You broke up?" Michael leaned forward, him now being hundred percent annoyed with me. "Please say you are joking Ashton"

"No I'm not, well I think I put it that way to her"

"What do you mean you think you put it that way to her"

"I asked why we're still together and well basically you heard it all didn't you"

"You are beyond a joke Ashton, I can't believe you"

Michael and Luke both stood up and walked away to their bunks, like Calum did. I sighed and took my phone, opening a new text to Tilly.

A: hey

T: what do you want

A: to talk to my hopefully, still girlfriend? :)

T: last time i checked i was single

A: oh

A: i'm sorry

T: you said it yourself ashton

A: i didn't mean it

T: sure sounded like you did

A: i was angry and upset with myself

T: why

A: i did something i shouldn't have and regret it

T: your own fault...

A: i know, i know

T: calum and michael text me 

A: saying?

T: they apologized on your behalf

T: in which i think it should be you, not them

A: yeah i know

A: again, i'm sorry

10 minutes had passed, and still no reply for Tilly had come through.

A: you still there???

A: tilly?

A: bye then?

haven't updated in forever i know i'm sorry

this is a little filler for the next few chapters