Living The Magcon Life

Chapter 13

Today is Matt's funeral and I'm not sure I'm ready for it. I have to say a speech and I don't know if I can do that. I've taken quite a few things from Matt's room and they smell like him.

I get to the place and Cameron, Nash, Taylor, Hayes, Lucy, Logan, and Layla pile out after me. They all sit down because they don't have to talk and I'm family so I go up to the family area. I hug Kristen and Dylan who are currently balling their eyes out along with Mike and Sarah. My mom is crying but not hard. I start to cry too.

"I'm so sorry" I tell them all and they cry.

"It isn't your fault. This is hard for you too, I'm sure" Kristen says. I nod.

"So how are you?" Dylan tries to take the subject off Matt.

"Well you last saw me two years ago so the kids are four now, I'm pregnant again, I'm engaged, and I've been a complete mess the last two weeks" I tell them.

"Congratulations on your pregnancy and engagement" Kristen smiles and my mom hugs me along with Kristen and Dylan.

"I've been a mess too, he's my little brother. I didn't ever think that he would die before me. This is too hard. I don't know if I can have a speech" Kristen cries. The thing starts and the priest talks all good things about Matt like he knew him personally.

Mike had to say a speech first and then Kristen, then Dylan, then me.

"My son was a real pain in the ass sometimes but he was a funny kid, he was great. I, we miss him so much and this is has been hard on his family and closest friends. Um- Kristen" Mike breaks out into tears which forms tears in my eyes. Kristen hugs her dad and comes up but Mike is hugging Dylan, Sarah, and my mom. He comes and hugs me next.

"Matt was my little brother, he would pick on me and Dylan would help him. I would always tell them to stop as they laughed. He was sassy, and funny, and would argue but I would never have said that I didn't want him to be my brother or anything of the sort. I loved him so much and now I have our memories but I'm unable to make more with him. His step-sister is now going to talk" Kristen cries. What about Dylan? I take a deep breath and step up to where everyone can see me. Hayes gives me a reassuring look.

"I um, I'm Matt's step-sister. I didn't know he existed for the first 16 years of my life but it's really more of six because Mike has been with my mom for six years. I remember the first time I ever met him. We sat next to each other at the table while we ate and we started laughing because Matt was making funny noises to make the dinner less awkward. The day after that we hung out with our friends and he said "let's have a brother sister talk" we had a serious talk about who I should date and all that and he was already the best brother I've ever had. No offense Dylan or Broden" people laughed weakly. "After they left I had a conversation with my friends about who we liked and I wouldn't let one of my friends date Matt, I told her absolutely not and he said the same thing to Hayes about me. We were really protective over each other. He always took care of me when I needed it but we fought a lot too. And over the stupidest things" I start remembering memories with Matt as I cry.

Like the first time I went to Magcon. I was laughing the entire plane ride. He wouldn't let Hayes and I sleep in the same bed so I had to sleep with Matt and that's the night that was my first accident. I remember I didn't feel like I fit in and Matt reassured me that they all loved me. That's the night that those girls came into our hotel room.

All the sudden I saw lights. I opened my eyes and the lights in our room were on. Hayes and Matt were still in bed and it was 3:46AM what the hell?

I woke up Matt but I saw 3 girls in the room with us. Oh no. I tried to shake Matt but we wouldn't wake up.

"Hayes" I called out but he didn't me in his sleep. I tried to take the phone and call one of the boys but one of the girls took my hair and pulled me from the phone.

"He um, kind of saved my life one day and then took care of me the entire week after that" I cried.

He didn't make me go home he said he would take care of me. "He was extremely stubborn with me. If he was mad at me he wouldn't talk to me at all. I love Matt so much and he will always be remembered" I cry and I go sit next to Hayes and cry into his shoulder. The boys are tearing up and some tears escape their eyes.

*Cameron's POV*

I'm trying to stay strong at Matt's funeral. All I can think about is Jasmine's a little bit later.

I remember all of those memories Gillian had with Matt.

"Let's all appreciate Matthew Lee Espinosa, a brother, step-brother, uncle, son, and friend" The guy said.

His grave was placed.

Matthew Lee Espinosa

Hit by car

He passed at 8:48AM on Monday, August 28th 2014

Gillian said goodbye to her family and we went to Jasmine's funeral. I swear I'm the only one who will cry. I have to say a speech, it won't be good at all. I greet Jasmine's family who is in tears.

"I'm sorry" I tell her mother.

"For what? You are almost as sad as I am" her mom cries.

"I was her boyfriend, she held my baby. I was supposed to save her and I didn't" I cry.

"You couldn't have, Cameron. You were in the same situation as her. You were just a little bit stronger" her mom smiles at me and hugs me.

It was all the same from Matt's funeral, the guy talking, the crying, the speeches from the family but it was my turn to say a speech. I saw Lucy and Gillian crying.

"I was Jasmine's boyfriend. She was an amazing person. She carried my baby right before she passed, she was the best thing that's ever happened to me. I wish I could've saved her but I didn't. I don't know if I actually could've or not. I was in so much pain that I couldn't think about the fact that I was injured or the fact that my girlfriend was right next to me. I have amazing memories with her" I stop and cry. I remember the entire thing. "I wish there was more, I'm so sorry" I say and I sit where I'm supposed to. Nash is hugging me while I cry.

Jasmine Johnson

Shot in the chest

She passed at 9:16PM on Sunday, August 27th 2014

"Jasmine Johnson was a wonderful daughter, soon to be mother, girlfriend, and friend" the man said.

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