asaki ↠ nct female member

➺last

1:46am
November 4, 2016

This is the third and last week of promotions.

Playing with Fire did really good on charts, and the MV currently has 46million views, it did incredibly good, better than I ever expected honestly, i cried when the mv reached 10million views and after that I couldn't really continue to watch the progress, but i had some free time yesterday and when i saw the views, I started bawling my eyes out, i just can't believe it, i'm so happy people like the music that i do. I feel really touched by the support of nct fans and non-fans, because it has been gaining attention from non-fans too!

And even though i'm really really happy i can't help but to feel relieved that promotions are ending.

This debut was obviously different than the first two.

It's a solo debut, so, i'm not with my members, and I don't really mind it on stage but backstage while I'm waiting, when i'm getting my makeup and hair done, when the staffs are setting up my in-ear, mic, it's all so silent and boring

When i'm in the car going to music shows or fansigns, i'm alone, and i don't like it

I grew up alone and i was always sad, but didn't really understand why, why were the other kids so happy and bright and i wasn't? 
And then I got into SM, and after I became friends with nct I realized that i didn't like being alone, i liked having people by my side even if we were in complete silence, i like the company of people, i liked the feeling of having people in my life that i care about and knowing that they care about me too.

And during the promotions I wasn't technically alone, i had my manager by my side, as well as my bodyguard and the makeup and hair staff, the stylist staff, i had people around me, but i wasn't nct

It's currently Friday and i'm on my way to busan for my last fansign, the goodbye stage was pre-recorded and is going to air today at 7am

It's a pity, that the promotions are over, but i'm finally going to be able to rest properly.

And because i've been so busy i've been giving mediocre homework to my teachers and i hated it, i hate doing anything mediocre, if i'm going to do something i want it to be the best that it can possibly be. I think that way at school and when I'm practicing , i'm really passionate about my career.

I've been practicing so much this past weeks, because i was so afraid i was going to make a mistake, but now everything hurts, i had to obviously endured it for promotions but i'm finally gonna be able to just lay in my bed in order to heal

That is until dreams comeback on February.