bts angst

ㅡ late, k.nj

y/n pov

"the number you are calli-"

sh1t, where have he been? i have been dating him for more than 2 years by now. lately, he isnt the namjoon that i know. he keep coming home late and even rarely talk to me.

i have been waiting for hours, i'm tired but i can't sleep because i don't even know how is my boyfriend going.

bang!

our shared house banged open. as expected namjoon is there but there is something new in him. he is drunk, his clothes is a mess, there is a smeared lipstick in his lips. i go to him amd i immidiately smell an alcohol and a woman's perfume.

"namjo-"

prak!

he slapped me, in these years of dating he has never slapped me before. i held my cheeks which is slapped by him and look at him with fear in my eyes.

i stand up and start to head to our shared bedroom and close the door. i slid down the door and all of my tears start to flow down. i hug my knees and burried my face in my knees

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i wake up still in the same position as last night, i guess i fall a sleep then. i walk downstairs and see namjoon sleeping in the couch. i walk to him and start to stare at his feature. just then he wakes up.

"good morning jagi" he said with his morning hoarse voice as if nothing happens last night. he tried to move but he immidiately groan in pain because he was drunk last night.

"ugh, i am so dizzy. i get drunk don't i?" he ask and i just nodded

"are you okay? you don't look like yourself." he said and i nodded again. if you look at me, i look horrible i have a visible eye bags and i look like i don't have any energy left

"i just don't feel so good." i said and i start to head to our shared bedroom.

"should i end all of this now?"

"or should i wait for tonight, will he be like last night?"

i decide to pick the second one, if he get home drunk and i will break up with him no matter what. just then namjoon come inside the room and head to the bathroom. after he done he start to get ready for work

"what time are you coming home today?" i ask

"i will go home midnight don't wait for me." he said and kiss my temple and start to head outside.

well, i guess lets see tonight.

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it was 10pm by now and as expected i can't sleep so i decide to just walk to the nearby park. i walk there slowly trying to waste my time while walking there.

i arrived and see a heartbreaking sight, namjoon and a girl kissing like infront of everybody. my tears don't come out because i know that this will happen soon.

i decide to go near them and hide behind a tree, and then i see jin coming to namjoon. jin is my childhood friend and namjoon best friend.

"hey joon." jin said

"hey hyung."

"who is this girl?" i heard jin said while pointing to the girl.

"this is my side chick." namjoon said plainly

"wtf? then what about y/n?!" jin said raising his voice, well you could tell that he is very very mad

"i love her too," namjoon said and after that i cant hold it again and i start to run back home.

author pov

after y/n run back to home, jin noticed it since y/n is making alot of noise with the slipper that she wears. jin immidiately start to chase y/n not caring all the call from namjoon.

meanwhile with y/n, she run to her sh- no it will be his room after this since y/n will break up with namjoon. y/n write a letter and immidiately go out from their shared house to see jin panting in the front of their house.

"j-jin?" y/n sobbed and jin open his arms wide signaling y/n that she could hug him. y/n run ti him and hug jin tightly.

"w-why? why would he do that?" y/n sobbed in jin embrace, jin just stay quiet while patting y/n back ro calm her down. suddenly jin broke the hug and said.

"y/n, i know that namjoon have just broke your heart, but i just want you to know that i love you. i have love you since years ago. i wanted to confessed but it end up namjoon confess first and make you his." jin said making y/n shocked

"i don't force you to love me back, i just want to say it to you." jin said

"i-i will think about that jinnie." y/n said and smiled. y/n have ever love jin too in highschool time but she was to afraid to confess but when suddenly namjoon confessed, y/n somehow in love with namjoon and forgot her feeling for jin.

"thank you y/n and if you want to live with me its okay, i am always alone at home anyways" jin said and y/n nodded

namjoon pov

i have just come home from a date with my side chick. when in the park i accidently meet jin hyung but weirdly when someone is running he suddenly chase her. and somehow that girl really look familiar to me. y/n? no way, i told her that she shouldn't wait for me.

i went to our shared bedroom to see it was empty, i immidiately freaked out and look at our closet and all of her clothes are gone too. i look at our shared bed and see a letter there.

'for joonie, my love' i guess it was for me so i open it and start reading it.

dear namjoon,

hey love, i see you with your side chick in the park. don't worry, i am not mad at you i am just dissapointed that you wont just break up with me and be with her.
don't look for me, don't ever try to contact me.
just remember, i love you.

from your ex girlfriend💔

"n-no! it can't be happening!" i screamed in frustation and tears start to flow down

'if i come earlier, i could make sure that you don't leave. but i was too late to do that.'

updated version💗