OLIVIA.
In the distance I see Daniel and Tom talking. And I know it's about me, because they are constantly looking over at me. And I'm looking at them, I don't care. I wanna know what they are saying about me. Tom better not tell Daniel what I told him. I will give him a big smack if he does. A head move from Daniel, they are moving. Out of my sight. Bitches. My phone screen lights up, it's Victoria.
Victoria V
Hi! You wanna join me and Dil for a drink? Or do we need to come to you?
If you feel like it of course!
Hi! Im on my way!!
With pain I get up. The wound opened up in the shower, because it got soft and Daniel was being a little ruff. I put a bandage on it again, just in case, I don't want any blood in my clothes. I leave the Renault motorhome and enter the Red Bull one a couple of steps away. My smile grows when I see Vic and Dilara. I sit down at their table.
'Hey, where are you coming from?' Daniel kisses me when I sit down next to him. He's having lunch. I just had some lunch with the girls. I needed it. Just some girl talk. 'Red Bull.' He nods. I can feel his eyes looking at me. 'What?' I turn to him. 'You look tired.' Rolling my eyes I look away. 'I'm not. I'm feeling good.' I force myself to smile. 'You're sure?' I look down at my fingers. 'Yes. Let it rest please.' I'm gonna cry if he doesn't. But he keeps his mouth shut. Luckily. I wanna go for a walk, come to my self a little. Playing some music. I stand up. 'Where are you going?' I rest my hand on his shoulder, squeezing it once. 'For a walk, I need it.' He nods. 'Stay safe.' 'I will.' We kiss before I leave the motorhome again.
Lets sit down here. No idea where I am. But I'm only a couple of meters away from the track. Some calming music is playing through my earbuds, the hot laps started not long ago. The harsh, but beautiful, sound of the car is topping my music when the cars pass. My phone vibrates in my hand. Tom. Answering my questions I asked before I started walking.
Tommy
You didn't told him I'm having nightmares right?
Because if did, I'll kill you!!
No I didn't! I promise!
We were just had a quick chat it wasn't about you
You even suck at lying through text
I'm not stupid Thomas
He's worried about you but I didn't told him that's up to you
Good!
Where are you?
Idk somewhere in a corner of the track
Are you safe?
Yeah I'm fine, no one is here tho
Be back before the race starts please
Yeah mom
🖕🏼
Gotta go
Yo
I place my phone down on my lap. Rest my head back and close my eyes for a quick second.
I wanna leave. But I don't know where I am. Closing my eyes made me tired, I didn't sleep of course. I tried thinking about fun things, it worked but not the whole time. I just started searching some pregnancy information. The drivers parade is already going on I know the timetable a little. But I'm still gonna call Daniel, I don't know who else to call. 'What's up?' He picks up. 'I'm maybe kinda lost.' Laughing on the other side. Making me smile too. 'Don't laugh I'm serious.' I get up from the dusty ground, cleaning my butt. 'Where are you?' He says a bit more serious, but bet he's still smiling. 'I don't know! If I knew I would walk back.' How stupid is he? He laughs again. 'How does your environment looks like?' 'I'm not far away from the track. But I'm at a dead corner.' I look around. Legit dead, no one is here. Still no clue how I ended up here.
Daniel his soft fingers move over my cheek, into my hair. It makes me peaceful, I could fall asleep any second. 'You want me to turn off the lights?' I shake my head. 'I'm fine.' But he looks thoughtful at me. 'I know you're having nightmares.' I look pass him. Biting the inside of my lip. 'Thomas.' I knew it. That mother fucker. He shakes his head. 'No. You told me yourself.' I haven't told him anything. That's certain. 'You talk in your sleep sometimes. Don't, please don't kill me, don't shoot.' I said that? I swallow and stay quite. I turn around facing the ceiling. His hand moves over my arm to my side, pulling my carefully closer to him. 'You're safe, it won't happen again.' With both hands I hold on to his arm underneath the sheets. 'I know that. I'm not constantly thinking about it, at least not conscious, but then at night. I'm terrified.' When I'm home I wanna get help, I need it. Because this isn't healthy, not for me and not for the baby. I was thinking about EMDR, I've read about it when I was looking for help after my dad passed away. 'I can't make it better and that's awful.' Softly I smile. That's sweet of him to say. I look at him. 'I think I wanna be alone for a week or so, it's not you.' He smiles. 'I know. You wanna get your mind straight.' I nod. That's something I need to do alone. 'I totally get it and I really think you should.' I'm so happy he understands. We all have those moments sometimes. 'But I'm gonna watch you until you sleep.' Smiling I look away. 'No you don't.' 'Yes I am. You need sleep Ollie, I can see you're tired. I'm holding your hand for when you're scared.' He takes my hand. I smile. That won't help shit, he knows that, but it's nice. 'I love you so much.' I kiss him. 'I love you more.' I turn around. We spoon, his hand is resting on my stomach. The thing sucking really bad too is that I'm extra tired now I'm growing a baby inside of me.
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Distraction
FanfictionI can't keep my eyes off her. And I really need to focus on the race. But she's so pretty. I wanna know her touch. Her fingers trough my hair. And her smiles, it's perfect. She's all perfection. She's such a distraction. And honestly I don't mind.
